Insights of ChelleLyn_the Scorpio Gal

[MV/HQ] Wang Lee Hom 王力宏 - 柴米油鹽醬醋茶 Chai Mi You Yan Jiang Cu Cha

2010-08-22T16:31:00.000+08:00

Lenka - The Show

2010-08-22T07:57:00.000+08:00

Soon.. in a couple of mths.. as I enter the supposedly prime phase of my life.

2010-08-21T03:56:00.003+08:00

Woah! Is it time to rejoice or to worry about my biological clock as I shall be entering my mid-age zone as I leave the twenty-sth range come Nov 3? Surprisingly, I am pretty calm and coolz about this new mid-phase of my life as one thing for sure, I will not and I can say confidently of myself be in the danger of hitting mid-life crisis for I have seen the black hole of my life already.. All the adversity and mind-boggling times of getting engulfed in my self-doubt and worries about what's my future behold in the past has shown me much of life.
Having been to the darkest days of my life, I shall never ever allow myself to be fallen into such pit hole again. With more self-appreciation and embracing of life, I must say that life does indeed can be beautiful after all. There is indeed beauty in all the four seasons of life.. only when you noe where to look for and search within as well as focusing your mind to be a resilent and positive one.
Cultivating good habit of the minds in fact is the key to success and contentment in life.
The wonder of one's mind and of cos the law of attraction at work.
No doubt, with greater power & $ comes greater responsibility at an older age. Nonetheless, with the positive outlook of life and acceptance about life having its up and down as variety and diversity spices up life, my life has since improved greatly with me awaiting the final meeting of the Special One who will share my joy and independence of unconditional love and understand that to love is to accept and love the whole of someone and to acknowledge that self-love and happiness doesn't depend nor come from your other half but mainly on yourself.

梁靜茹如果沒有(自製KTV)

2010-05-21T00:30:00.000+08:00

梁靜茹-愛情之所以為愛情

2010-05-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

Charice - "Pyramid" featuring Iyaz - Studio Version

2010-05-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

I simply love Charice's New single, Pyramid! Blew me off.. Powerful voice!

I believe I can fly - Ti lascio una canzone - Charice Pempengco e Viola...

2010-05-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

I like this new version of song by Charice & the little girl.. ;)

The power of positive thinking.. of cos the law of attraction!

Let your feeling be your guide

Earth Day: Nice Poems on Trees..

2010-04-25T17:32:00.002+08:00

Last Wed was the Earth Day 2010.. a day for us to remember Mother Nature and its beauty amidst our busy lives with modern technologies.

Red, red, red the shine
Of the splendour in the west,
glowing through the ranks of pine,
clear along the mountain-crest

Long, long, long the trail
Out of sorrow's lonely vale;

But at last the traveller sees,
Light between the trees

~ Henry Van Dyke

I was the home of a million green leaves,
A shelter for creatures of the earth
A home for the songbirds
and a drinker of water to curb the floods
In springtime
~ James Still

[MV] 林俊傑 JJ Lin - 加油 Jia You [english sub]

2010-03-27T14:56:00.001+08:00

jiayou..way to go gal.. with an grade up comes greater responsibiity and higher expectation. Not just to empower little lives but to contribute more..

Baby Boy-Big Brovaz Various Clips

2010-03-20T00:30:00.001+08:00

An old song that I liked way back then during uni days.. Finally found.. yippee.;)

Down With Love 言承旭 - 就想賴著妳 Opening Theme Song

2010-02-28T19:28:00.001+08:00

Nice..nice.. so full of love and eye candy ;) definitely not gg to miss any episode!

方大同 - singalongsong [ MV ]

2010-02-28T05:06:00.001+08:00

Coolz song.. Simple lyrics w nice melody..

Last day of CNY of 2010: Yuan Xiao Jie

2010-02-28T02:41:00.004+08:00

Been such a long long time since I last blog. In recent years, my blog has transformed into
a collection of my fav. youtube music videos. Oh well, coincidentally, by chance, thanks to a little comment by Anonymous on an old, in fact, ancient blog post during those sweet and happy days in 2005, I decided to pen my first blog for this Year of Tiger, 2010 on this auspicious day!

There was never an intention to write a blog since I stopped this regular habit which I took up during hostel days. One key reason was for me to share about my joys while practising my writing skill. 5 years back, the secondary reason was for me to communicate with my bf then.. a form of relating to him in an intellectual way..haha.. Oh well, he is a very philosophical thinker with sometimes a wasped yet unique way of thinking.. Anyway, this was all back in the good old happy days before things started to fall apart when we parted. No doubt, I am thankful that our friendship has resumed but indeed, like it or not, the fine, thin..close to invisible crack to our net of frienship bond exist for eternity. Boundaries have been drawn and I am proud to say that my love for him has transformed entirely from romantic love to pure friendship love.

No doubt, I still treasure him but now as a cherished friend who brings in couple of other good worthy friends into my life. Perhaps he was never meant to be the One of my life , instead his role is to be the missing link to a branch of friend network I never expect. All is well in the end. If he had never loved me romantically ( It was a misjudgement on his part to mix up cherished friendship w love as he claimed, so be it.) I had wasted too many years pondering and hoping in vain that he treats me more than a friend and one fine day, his parents will finally accept me and we will be reconciled. Looking back at this now, lol, what a joke! :) How naive of me!

I have learnt to let it go and move with life. With 30 little lives in my life now to cope with and mould, I have more meaningful tasks to do than to linger on such futile dream. No matter what happen, my happiness every single day is of the top priority and I need to work and train myself to achieve this every day!

Only when my cup is full of joy and hope that every day will be a fine day then could i spread the joy of life to my little ones and friends around me. I used to be a total pessimist, self-wallowing in self-pity that I have come a long way to improve much. Ironically, thanks to this ex-bf perhaps, I have toughened up mentally and spirtually. There are no doubts, times of pain and struggle with my job too but the time I took to bounce back have improved markedly.
Brain-kiss, gal! You have come a long way.. Embrace this new year with courage and curiosity to make your life better. Good luck

Boys Like Girls - Two is Better than One (feat. Taylor Swift) MUSIC VIDEO

2010-01-16T01:37:00.001+08:00

Cute video ..in sync w the song lyrics ;)

周杰伦 Jay Chou - 断了的玄

2009-12-17T11:41:00.001+08:00

Yippee! At last.. i found this Jay Chou song that I like but dunno its title...

The Beatles - Here Comes the Sun (with lyrics)

2009-10-22T19:09:00.001+08:00

Wow..nice song I chance upon from Movie, Imagine That :)

You Guo Qu De Nu Ren - Miriam Yeung MV

2009-10-22T19:01:00.001+08:00

My fav tvb song about women..indpt modern women with a past .. nice tempo n lyrics... Female powers :)

John Mayer: Say (music video from "The Bucket List")

2009-10-03T21:06:00.001+08:00

Beautiful song for a meaningful movie on living life to the fullest

My Love Will Get You Home-Christine Glass

2009-09-29T23:16:00.001+08:00

Wow.. What a nice song. i just found it by chance after watching that TVB last episode of Tang Xin Feng Bao.. There is two sides to this song.. it could be a one-sided love..an unconditional love.. unreciprocated love..or it could also be viewed as the power of love..the greatest encouragement.. Oh well, which to believe in.. I shall choose the latter.

" I am your friend now, rock..." ...Hmm.. It sounds so familiar..

2009-09-28T01:37:00.002+08:00

I was reading this winning entry of this year's commonwealth essay competition entitled as above. It can be found on ST Review section, dated 10 Sept 2009.
I seem to be in the shoes of the bird in the story. It simply struck a chord in me.
I reckon that perhaps Chew Chia Shao Wei may have encountered such friendship before to be able to pen such expressive and simply yet profound story of friendship and the unconditional act of giving.

Oh well, honestly, after reading this story.. I was very emotional for a while that day..11sept 2009.. Not cos of the tragic remembrance of that 9/11 day @ New York that shook the world..perhaps partially but mainly due to the cool, "aloof" aka a rock/stoning friend of mine.. a friendship that I have many a time contemplated to put a full stop to it once and for all.. Friends sometimes are indeed passing clouds in one's life.. As I was saying.. I contemplated.. so till right this very moment as I am penning my thoughts, this very "cool" friendship is still being maintained though via msn or occasional group gathering though.

As I read on the essay, I simply could relate so well to all the characters and especially so, their dialogues about friendship and care. The scenario of the sea working at the rock in the story reminded me so much about this friend of mine, C who used to be so fully aware of the reality and harshness of life even back at those tender years of age when we were still in poly. C always chose to be a lonesome soul, wandering around campus like a "wandering spirit" with no traces left behind.. no sound of movement too.. Haha.. What a creepy, sneaky fellow siah? Oh well, I guess this is just the uniqueness of C bah.. Hehe..to the point of me seeking a friendship in C back then out of curiosity of this strange breed?haha.. nah..C is a normal being of normal IQ, EQ super low though then but has been great improvement in recent years.. This sentence " I am sticking around" the bird told the rock, " so you won't forget me , even when you are just a grain of sand." reminded me of my inital purpose in seeing a friend in C.. Not so much of not being forgotten but to make a little difference in C's circle of life.

Perhaps our paths were meant to cross then and that was how our friendship began with me being the more vocal and chatty one while C as the thinker and analyser of situation. Those were the good old days ( just like the way the bird and rock shared stories with each other.) till one fine day, something happened that totally changed the friendship for eternally.. Nothing could help to bring it back to those good old days of fun, laughter and joy..oh well..sometimes frustrations too when C and I were emo as well as totally wrong frequencies.. Days, Months and Years have passed since then and life went on as usual since our graduation and entrance into the real-world life.

"The frustration, the laughter, and the gratitude that the rock had experienced with the bird would be preserved as colour images amidst a wash of sepia recollections".My nostagic feeling was so well-summed by the writer. Coming to the end of my reflection, I of course have long accepted the permanent change to this friendship and look to happier things in life as well as reminicising about those fond memories rather than the negativities.
With this, I shall end here with a well-wished to C 2 ve faith, hope and love in this journey of life & of course take care n all ze best in future endeavours. May C be no longer the silent rock waiting to become a little grain of sand but instead the bird who explores and seeks out knowledge from life.

20.09.2009.. My Cedarian Gathering...

2009-09-21T09:57:00.002+08:00

On this once-in-a-lifetime special day of such nice numeral double,
I had an enjoyable time with my fellow newfound Cedarians frenzs through an old friend or neighbour, Hani as well as my usual Cedarian Kaki. I was glad that I went as it was like a great time remembering those good old days at our alma mater.

In the beginning, when Hani invited me to her house for Hari Raya and then informed me that I could meet up with fellow Cedarians from our same batch too- her NCC kaki from Cedar, I did have some reservations about "gatecrashing" their annual gatherings. After all, I was never part of the NCC community back then, neither am I now. Nonetheless, bcos we come from the same 80s batch and of cos the invisible Cedar bondage amongst us, I decided to go after all the inital hesitations. Coming to think about it, oh well, what harm could there be for me or them? Just a bunch of ladies chilling out together n makaning at a Muslim frenz's house, a stone's throw away from my hse.

Once a Cedarian, Always a Cedarian, I reckon..
I can tell the pride and identity in all of us..the old time frenzs n newfound frenzs of the same batch from yesterday's gathering. I didnt take too long to break the ice and get to noe the other ladies in Hani's NCC kaki.. In fact, there is one who used to be in the same class as me in Lower Sec, L and she still looked quite the same as those yesteryears. So do I other than my new braces. Honestly, as i looked back, I do find most of the NCC ladies familiar though I do not actually know them. I must say that, during that short hour of makaning n chatting, there was this undescribable feeling of homecoming and warmth . All in all, a fun-filled gathering and I bet I have no regret going.. In fact, it also gives me comfort to know that there are many other bachelorettes other than like me in my batch! Haha.. in fact, one of them even commented that it may be the curse of my batch! Too many females, too few males?? hahaha.. oh well, Believing is seeing.. Nah, i dun believe it as I also have many married friends from my very own batch too.

This special day ended on a good note too as I met up with my usual Cedar kaki for dinner @ Vivocity. It was just a simple Asian Kitchen meal for dinner and then we headed up to the rooftop area of vivo for a lady chat. We decided against going for a movie or the overpriced Song of the Seas show @ Sentosa after some discussion. This turned out to be a wise choice as the ladies chat was so fun and comforting as we shared about our woes and concerns about our jobs, futures and of cos, the constant concern.. the Big 3 O approaching real fast... HOw should we face it? Embrace it w joy n acceptance or loathe it? I choose to embrace it as it is after all a matter of fact.. Reality.. I cant change it then I just got to learn to accept it and appreciate it. The sophistication and maturity we are associated with the Big 3 O.. It may not turn out to be that scary as it is just a numeral man!

Disney Princess: The Beauty of the Season (Official)

2009-09-05T04:23:00.001+08:00

I wanna go find n buy the Disney Princess soundtracks.. Nice songs

Where Dreams Begin - Disney Princess

2009-09-05T04:16:00.001+08:00

another catchy nice Disney Princess song...gd for mass dance?

五月天忘詞MV 清晰版

2009-09-05T03:42:00.001+08:00

One of my fav May Day song.. ;)

Ayaka - Welcome home (Okaeri) Sub'd

2009-07-19T03:54:00.001+08:00

yeah! the English translation of the lovely theme song of Jap drama..Absolute Boyfriend :) Kind of resonate with me as I believe in the present..the gift of happiness at the very moment instead of happily ever after... Too far-fetched.. No doubt, Happiness is a choice and it definitely pays as you share the joy of giving to others without expecting anything in return...

Haha..So kind of like apply to me too..
Welcome home to the land of Connection to Happiness!
All of us has the key to this blissful land but it really depends on how you view life and its up and down to fully be connected to this Universe Energy of Happy Frequency!!! :)

Zettai Kareshi OST FULL + Lyrics

2009-07-19T03:50:00.001+08:00

What a beautiful love story! Wow..So touching
How many of us crave for that perfect ideal bf? But only to realise as time passes by that it never exist unless unconditional love is present for the two to embrace each other's flaws and simply just being the natural self... :)

Elva - Because Of You.. This love song rocks!

2009-06-30T03:55:00.001+08:00

Because of U?... The cause n effect of loving too passionately?..
Nice song..Great tempo..

玻璃鞋 : Found at last.. One of my fav Sammi Cheng Song :)

2009-06-30T03:43:00.001+08:00

The Cinderella dream of every girl?
Haha..if only there can indeed be this glass slipper for everyone

Butterfly Fly Away-Hannah Montana The Movie lyrics

2009-06-21T15:56:00.001+08:00

I am not particularly a miley cyrus fan.. Nonetheless, cos of my job with many little girls..i decided to invest in the soundtrack of the Hannah Montana movie.Wow.. this song simply touches my heart! What a heartwarming song for me to share with all about Love and Dream.. Life is empty without Dreaming..
dare to Dream .. Big Dreams ..
Someday, the little caterpillar will grow into a Beautiful Butterfly
That will fly away to see the wondrous Big Big World out there!

Finally I did it.. PUt on my dental braces for practical reasons

2009-06-21T00:11:00.002+08:00

Oh yes, after years of procrastination since my NIE days and the fear of pain...
I finally made the big leap and decided to go for it .. Correcting my row of teeth through dental braces! Indeed, pain and soft food will be what I will constantly be associated with for the next 2-3 years at least. Nonetheless, I believe it will all pay off in the end with a beautiful set of pearlie white and my perfect smile to charm even further more guys out there? wahaha. pls dun puke at this point of time.. I must have some faith in myself at least right. I aint tat plain Jane nor a glam queen, but certainly an above average looking girl with her confusing nationality look: Indonesian? ABC? ( I wish..hehe)? Arab... Malay...look. It's all thanks to my Baba roots over at my paternal side i suppose.

All in all, wish me luck and success in this mammoth project.. $$$ expensive siah..
No venture, no pain = no gain? So I must endure and look forward to the day i put on retainers:)

LOVE STORY (Taylor Swift) meets VIVA LA VIDA (Coldplay) - Piano Cello - by Jon Schmidt

2009-06-16T00:37:00.001+08:00

A beautiful combination of pop and classical instrument!
Just so serenading to my ears..

Taylor Swift - Love Story - Official Music Video w/lyrics

2009-06-16T00:33:00.001+08:00

Lovely song.. Simply loving it!! Wow... She is so charming..so is her Romeo? :)

m2m pretty boy official music video

2009-06-14T16:27:00.001+08:00

So nostagic.. If only they are still there as a performance team!
Those days when I enjoyed these songs with my ladies powers..:) dreaming away about the pretty boy to be coming into our lives.. Some have met their ONes while a few of us, still waiting? Oh well, I shall see that they are more proactive now in search of their happiness in a sensible way of cos..

As for me, only time can tell. I am still enjoying my bachelorette days for now.. When the big 30 comes along, perhaps i shall be more proactive and responsive to date choices bah..
Oh well, as for now, I have 30 little princesses to educate and entertain... Quite a handful already for me..to love, nurture and mind-train!

Colour of Happiness? Is that any at the first place?

2009-06-12T00:59:00.002+08:00

I was telling a friend just a few hours ago that I am into this series of kimmi dolls figures.
Been searching for this particular doll character which represents Happiness.
I don't seem to be able to find this doll named Kioko everywhere I goes!
I guess it's not meant to be or the timing is just not right perhaps since I am indeed yet to find my real happiness in my life in terms of the Special Half. Thus, after a few futile searches,
I gave up and decided that if this doll is meant to be mine, someday, somehow I will see her again. So much about this character, Kioko! Apparently, the character short notes attached: proclaims that : " Her spirit brings fulfillment and pleasure!"

Check out: http://www.kimmidoll.com/

Oh well, I believe that I have this thing about Japanese dolls since I was at a tender age.
NOt so much into the virtues or spiritual aspect of what each doll represent.
Now that I am earning my own $, I suppose I can work towards collecting 1-2 dolls each year till the day I amass a group of say 10 perhaps to be displayed at my very own apartment 5-10 years down the time? I shall keep my fingers crossed!

Anyway, back to the question on colour of happiness this frenz just posed to me

"Oh, so what is the colour of happiness?" he asked innocently?

" Hmm," I replied sheepishly. " I can't rem the exact colour of this happiness doll but it really
depends on one's preferences perhaps?"

" Haha, into yet another philosophical question? Oh well..." he said.

This was how the conversation ended but this sets me thinking..
Interesting .. Colour of Happiness..
Based on the Kioko colour, they seem to be black and red..
Is this because red is usually an auspicious colour for many?
Anyway, IMO, I feel that the colour of happiness is transient and mood-dependent.
Someday, wearing a blue top just simply makes your day without any particular reason..It's just an undescribable feeling or gut feeling you had that morning. Or perhaps wearing a colour that complements well with your skin colour and thus bringing out the best in you can also be considered as your colour of happiness. YOu know, those typical spring, summer, autumn n winter colour styles..warm/cool colours... the list goes on.

All in all, i guess all I have to say is that to sum up, colour of happiness whatever it is depends on the person concerned and of cos the moods felt then. Like the typical saying about life being not just 2 distinct black or/and white but with the many shades of grey too. This applies to the colour of happiness too.

M2M- dont say you love me ^^[Pokemon Movie]

2009-06-10T01:44:00.002+08:00

the best reply to a suitor who is very persistent! Best way of rejection or telling him or her to take it slow.. Go with the flow ;)

If You Can Dream - Disney Princess

2009-06-07T22:07:00.001+08:00

The Disney Princess video of this sweet, enchanting song! I simply love it!

My Lovely First Week of June

2009-06-07T21:08:00.004+08:00

In a couple of minutes' time, it will be the second week
of my precious June holiday. How time flies.
In the blink of an eye, I have attended quite a few events and
did what I have planned to do.

Looking back now, in terms of my sch duties,
I have done my part well in accompanying a gp of p4 HA pupils to ACS for a Lang Art Festival.
It had been an enriching event where I get to meet pupils n teachers from various sch.
Of cos, not forgetting that I got to explore around the mega school compound.
I also got to attend a few engaging and useful workshop and talks on storytelling and poetry slam!

The next highlight of the event will be the Math Conference on Mathematics Modelling @ NIE.
I learnt a great deal, got to buy that teacher stamp set I have been looking for as well as a reunion with my fyp tutor and friendly pals from CTFS.

Lastly, I finally accomplished a task that has long been planned but I hesitated when will be the right time to get it done and over regardless of the outcome. At last, the load is off my mind as I did what I have been promising myself to get this over by the end of June! I am proud of my self
for facing up to reality and indeed applying what my guru has been teaching me over the year.
Emotion management. All I can do now is to do what i need to do, accept whatever outcome there may be as the outcome is beyond my control. Freedom of choice is the right of all.

Last but not least, I enjoyed the company and the time spent in the entire week with my colleagues and dearest friends. I am beginning to enjoy the beauty of life..no doubt my list of work for next term and duties is never-ending, I have learnt to take things in my stride.
Live and let live. Cherish the moment and live in the present as the future with you and me is to be written by us! Love is the universal motivation of life.. To love or be loved?
I chose the latter for I believe that when we love others, we will be loved someday somehow.

I will do my best towards loving life n my job a little more day by day.. Life can still be beautiful even when I may never ever be the one I long to be with or is there ever meant to be one? Only time will tell and I shall wait patiently.

"We need patience in order to be happy. There are many who dream about happiness without being patient. But that is merely a dream; it is a fairy tale. It is to wish for a childish, easy life without any pitfalls or obstacles to overcome."

Meanwhile, I shall treasure everyone around me. Love may be important but if we sacrifice our personal space, growth and talent for love, we will absolutely find no happiness approaching..
This is a quote I learnt from a litte keepsake book on Love written by Daisaku Ikeda.

Lastly, I shall sum up my entry with the beautiful quote on Loveby Antoine de Saint-Exupery:
Love is not two people gazing at each other,
but two people looking ahead together in the same direction.

I believe that this applies to my job too when both teacher and pupils are to work hand in hand towards a meaningful acquisition of values and knowledge of life with love , faith and hope.

The Non-Disney Princesses - If You Can Dream

2009-06-06T05:27:00.006+08:00

Love will save the day if you can dream! Beautiful songs with lyrics from various Disney songs.. Enchanting..:)

Disney Princesses - If You Can Dream

(Ariel)
There is a world where hope
And dreams can last for all time
I wonder this place to go
You know it
When your heart will find

(Jasmine)
Hearing our song as old as rhyme
Hold my hand we're gonna fly
While a magic ride
Is just a kiss away

[Chorus]
If you can dream for wishful making
On a star its coming true

(Pocahontas)
The colors of the wind will lead
My heart right back to you

Cos if you can dream,
Reflections in a diamond sky,
Come shining on through

(Aurora)
Romance will always be so new
And love will save the day
If you can dream

(Snow White)
Someday my prince will come
It's certain as the sunrise
(Cinderella)
One day the slipper fits
And you see the love in his eyes

(Belle)
It's the tale as old as time
There's no mountain we can climb
When you're finally mine
And just a kiss away

[Chorus]
If you can dream for wishful making
On a star its coming true

(Pocahontas)
The colors of the wind will lead
My heart right back to you

Cos if you can dream,
Reflections in a diamond sky,
Come shining on through

(Mulan)
Romance will always be so new
And love will save the day
If you can dream

[Bridge]
(Belle)
So the story goes
Never tire the rose

(Jasmine)
There's a whole new world
Waiting there for us
Waiting just for us...

[Chorus]
If you can dream for wishful making
On a star its coming true

(Pocahontas)
The colors of the wind will lead
My heart right back to you

Cos if you can dream,
Reflections in a diamond sky,
Come shining on through

(Snow White)
Romance will always be so new
(Ariel)
And love will save the day, Ohhhh

(Mulan)
Love will save the day
If you can dream

(Ariel)
You can dream … …

Miley Cyrus The Climb Official Music Video HQ Video With Lyrics!

2009-06-06T05:27:00.005+08:00

Life is indeed a climb .. Mountain of Life for us to conquer.. Way to go

Miley Cyrus - The Climb NEW OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO HD w/ lyrics!

2009-06-06T05:27:00.001+08:00

This is the spirit to "climbing" and learning through our journey of life.. It all depends on your attitude and perspective.. Half full or half empty mentality.. Way to go.. a feel good song!

5th June.. a fun-filled day of bonding n self-relevation

2009-06-06T01:38:00.002+08:00

5th June 2009.. a day I will be proud of as I look back into many years down the road.
I have at last fulfilled my last wish and my agreement with the little kids.
Truth be spoke and all are well.

I have come a long way till today when I have learnt to appreciate and live in the very moment
for it is the present. Past has long been gone and can never be re-written to your liking.
Future is yet to be here so we shall behold, plan yet be adaptable to twitch plan according to the ever-changing situation. This is life and I have learnt to accept and embrace it

By fighting with life, resisting uncontrollable things like love and faith in others..
Ask and it's given..
Life is a reflection at times.. By resisting life and seeing the worst in everything,
indeed through such shades of lens about life, life will never be easier with such resistance.

Instead, to let go, let free..go with the flow..the river of life..
Let the water current bring u along to the utopia of joy and fun..
Life can someday indeed become a easier game for you and me..

Belief is a powerful tool.
I believe that after years of low phases and self-searching, finally the breakthrough has come
as I regain my confidence bit by bit since the day it shattered when I lost myself n my heart was too aching to guide and enjoy what life can offer.

All in all,
Life is indeed like a bed of roses.. how you wanna sleep on bed, when , what , where
it's entirely up to you! A pat on my shoulder.. A well-deserved one as I have come a long long day to where I have improved into.

When The Children Cry

2009-05-20T00:52:00.001+08:00

Now that it is that time of the year.. mid-exam results for the children to face and accept.
I guess that there will be some who cry , some who sing and celebrate.
Quite a nice song, perhaps i should consider this one of my choices for my guitar lessons.

Dive into the World of Dreams n Love

2009-05-18T07:24:00.003+08:00

The Purpose of Life is Joy.
The Basis of Life is Freedom.
The Way of Life is Expansion.

This was what my guru friend, Eug shared with me one fine day when I was encroached in the cave of self-pity and despair. I still remember it vividly as a constant reminder for my daily work n challenges ahead.

Just a couple of days ago, last Saturday evening,
due to my mis-management of time yet again and God's will for me to rekindle my interest in work?, we missed out watching the comedy,
Ramen Girl and ended up watching this inspiring Jap movie " Dive" instead since we were meeting at Cineleisure Orchard for dinner anyway.

My rating of the show is 3-4 Stars of 5.. haha..due to the eye-candy..those cute young boys with their impressive dives..haha.. It also struck a chord in me as some of their training scenes just reminded me of those good old db training n gym time @ ntu.. Ironically, i do miss those disciplined n stringent training days..

Some information of the movie! Dive!
Adapted from: http://www.variety.com/review/VE1117937369.html?categoryid=31&cs=1
A trio of Japanese teenagers get their shot at Olympic glory in "Dive!!," an earnest, overlong sports meller that nonetheless earns high marks for its sharp lensing of young divers in action, as well as the gratifying degree of sympathy helmer Naoto Kumazawa extends to each of the three contenders. Shrewdly positioned to capitalize on pre-Summer Olympics mania upon its June 14 local release, this sometimes awkward but affectingly sentimental item could find its niche, though casual (if strictly platonic) rear nudity could hold back the younger auds toward which the film is otherwise geared.
Adapted by Masashi Todayama and Tamio Hayashi from a novel by Eto Mori, "Dive!!" kicks off, in classic (or cliche) sports-movie fashion, with the Mizuki Diving Club in dire financial straits. Enter the beautiful Coach Asaki (Asaka Seto), who's determined to whip her young charges into shape and possibly yield a champ who can represent Japan at the upcoming Olympic Games in Beijing -- and, perhaps, save MDC from imminent closure.

What a Labour Day!!!

2009-05-02T08:34:00.002+08:00

This year' labour day was such a day of coincidence..
What do I mean? Coincidence as in the chance of bumping into people I know...
new or old friendship..in my Earthing days....All in all, 4 different people from interestingly
the various aspect of my life...My boss, my ex-head, my JOH travelmate & a little angelic princess from my unit...All these happened in a day itself being the day i met up w my buddy cousin since the last time we met up for shopping and show.

Initially, my idea of labour day is indeed a day of true blue labour..work..work..work..clearing and conquering Mount Essay and mind-boggling HRCs. Quite a negative n lousy feeling of overwhelming work even on a supposedly public holiday. Yet, thanks to my guru frenz, eug, once again my mood had been lifted as i acquire the art of pretending to be happy w this ton of work to alleviate my low mood.. Haha..interestingly, it works! I was just as amazed by it and this simply reminded me of those childhood days of pretense games n roleplaying as various occupations..Perhaps such act stirred up the childlike soul in me and triggered the button to happiness is the key to all!

With this in mind, my 2nd half of the labour day became so much more enjoyable as the drama of coincidence began to unfold itself. First, the movie 17 again was my aim but due to tixs being sold out, cousin n i changed our plan n decided to do retail therapy instead. Then we proceed to Raffles City on foot to squeeze out some exercising time..after a little sweetie treat @ Ben &Jerry. Along the way, we passed by SAM and decided to go in n take a look @ the art exhibition etc as free admission anyway..so why not? This is the place where I first saw my little princess n her queen walking towards us from abt 30m away. I was perplexed..gosh..imagine meeting her at such private time w my cousin. let alone gg into SAM to view exhibits along w them.. I swerved to a corner as fast as I could n avoided them as if they were swine flu carriers.
My cousin was shocked n later amused by me..haha..

To be continued... gtg last min...

Find Yourself by Brad Paisley

2009-04-02T21:23:00.001+08:00

Beautiful song that strikes a chord in the tune of my heart..Finding yourself and May Acceptance n Contentment be part of your life..day by day.. in this long long journey on Earth..

TVB-The Seventh Day Theme Video (Full)

2009-03-31T22:41:00.001+08:00

My latest Favourite TVB Serial..
So scenic n romantic... the up n down of Love...
How FAte can be such a strange thing...

Yet another eventful day.. Wow wee..

2009-03-28T00:58:00.003+08:00

Ask and it'll be given ..
The Law of Attraction... I wonder how true can tis be as finally..at last...
I can feel the upward trends in my life patterns after a long long time of low phase..for God knows..how long..
15th Mar been a great day...so was yesterday, 27th Mar.. yet another eventful day, both at work n personal social life... An enriching school excursion w my little 2 Kind..sians.. but under scorching sun though... A super-high, entertaining Ktv with my poly folks... Just in time for me to build up energy for my ultimate, first-ever parents' workshop in 7 hours'time..

Looking back now,
I had just so lost n searching for the light or answer i need to have..Mths after mths.. Years after years.. since the day my heart broke terribly... What a journey of life...

I must say that it has only been recently that I have finally not caught up with my past and
moving on steadily..appreciate what Life can be ..day by day...
I no longer seek to be the someone whom everyone likes and their praises or comments no longer mean much to me..especially on days when I am just so so...connected to the Universe..tapping on the endless Energy Source...

Nonetheless, I still have my shares of anxiety and woes in my even-changing career situations day by day.. Being a mind trainer..I can never ever have total control of these 30 little young minds..ever-impressionable..by our media...the Internet.. not forgetting our television programmes. Challenging ..no doubt..my career can be.. times after times..there had been couple of occasions n trying times when I just want to simply give it all up and face the music... Yet, I guess the stakes involved are just too high for me to shoulder alone for the fact that I will implicate many other innocent parties.. I decide to hang on.. persevere on... till the day I get my complete freedom!

Soon, in a couple of months, I have served my 1st year in this profession of all times.. 3 more years to clock b4 total freedom of choice.. Sounds pretty long n scary if I am to count down..So nah, I have learnt to be smart n wise..at least ..to choose to be happy but not counting down..
Just live a day by itself..appreciate life n the beauty of it n be happy.. The universe will take care of it all :)

As for my personal life, I am optimisstic tat this will be the special year for me to remember..
When, I dunno .. n fear not..my friends.. happy news ought to be shared..isn't? So far, no updates.. friendship is still the best option for now as I am working towards stability in my job..
I guess when the time is ripe, I believe I will noe.. n things will just fall into place just like the way I long it to be.. Conviction is powerful!! Meanwhile, I suppose by celebrating the little success in my life will do just as well for now.. baby steps towards my blissful life..

Indeed, Confidence is what we have,
Commitment is what we do,
Conviction is what we pledge,
Cedar is what we are...

This old-time sch slogan just popped up in my mind..

a lover's concerto

2009-03-15T02:34:00.001+08:00

An all-time favourite song for me! Everlasting melody to my ears.. The time now is 2.28am..15 Mar 2009.. Here I am Home Alone..enjoying every moments of my blissful time with only me and myself..Though I occasionally miss her nagging, little gracie's squabbling.. But as I think abt the many gifts awaiting me when they return..my face lit up!! What a win-win situation! How rejuvenating Day 1 of this ultimate rarity of Complete Freedom can be! Start of Mar Holis too..my long-deserved break from sch n my little princesses.. What a breather!
I guess now tat I ve found my inner peace more n more as each day passes as I learn to apply what Guru Eug has been guiding thus far..Though work can really b overwhelming esp exam period, I must always remind myself to choose to b happy.. Once when I am truly Happy, can i bring joy to those littles ones n my dearest pple in life. The Ripple effect of Happiness perhaps.. sounds so enlightened ah? wahaha..time to go back to my long overdue reflection log n erfs..

A different V-day celebration..

2009-02-15T11:26:00.003+08:00

It was that time of the year again when florists all over the world were making big bucks from
the lovestuck couples celebrating the day of love and passiont, Valentine's Day.
Being a single lady, I used to dread going out on such occasion to avoid further emphasizing my loneliness? Perhaps more of envy towards those fortunate ladies hitched and enjoying their little precious gifts.. Now tat I have embarked on my career which is yet to be so ever-smooth sailing with the boundless opportunity for me to be calm and steady in handling situations of all sorts, I suppose that I have little energy and time to be upset over such triviality in my life. Bread and butter is still the crux of matter especially during such testing times of recession worldwide.
Ensuring that I am up and able to conquer my job stress and eventually to handle my job duties with confidence and ever-readiness is my top priority now.

As for this year of Ox, I celebrated V-day in a rather different way..with my extended family.
I first went to watch a movie blockbuster, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button... I simply love the story and its many lessons of life that come along as the story unfolds. My movie companions were little Gracie n her dear godbro, aaron.. We enjoyed the movie very much despite of its long duration.. Close to 3 hours in fact. I was very engrossed in the show as I could relate to the key characters and at times, I could ever see parallelism and some similiarity of my life events to that of the storyplot. Nothing lasts forever, how true. This is the Life aspect we must come to terms with and accept eventually. All things must come to an end.. this is purely the law of nature

A Brand New Year.. A Brand New Class.. A new beginning to embrace

2009-01-19T00:17:00.002+08:00

Hello one and all....
Anybody's there? Hehe.. here's been quite a sleeping forgotten city for quite a while..
I guess I just dun feel like blogging after I had been busy juggling with my 24/7 job..
Anyway, time flies... and it has been half a year since I last stepped foot into my new posting.
Life was never the same again as back in my gd old uni days...but nonetheless, the digits in my bankbook have ever been increasing every mth... not exponentially..( haiz..how i wish...it could) but still at least in a steady way..

Now is the mid's Jan 2009 n with a week more to go, we shall be ushering in the New Lunar Year of Ox. CNY is here once again.. the usual visitation.. the greetings and of cos..hehe..the most-anticipated Ang Baos..ever though I may be considered old liao..but then at least I am still in my late 20s..still qualified since I am a swinging bachelorette...

The feeling of CNY is so different in recent years.. Hmm..I guess I am indeed maturing or aging bah.. The excitement of celebrating CNY is much reduced and in fact, the much-dreaded springcleaning annually kind of put me off whenever CNY is round the corner.

Nonetheless I still cherish and treasure my roots and Chinese. Of cos, CNY is a major event on our Lunar Calendar... All the customs..beliefs and well wishes... towards a great year ahead

AS for my CNY wish, I wanna be truly happy with myself and my challenging yet fulfilling job..
Perhaps this may be the year I meet that someone or not..I earnestly leave it to the fate of God.
I believe that Love come when u least expect it.. If it's meant to be, it will be no matter what..

Did You Know 2.0

2008-06-27T23:22:00.001+08:00

A very deep and thought provoking video I had been shown during a science training course recently

Now Hear Connie Talbot singing Over The Rainbow!!!

2008-06-13T12:33:00.001+08:00

What a little princess singing so magically and beautifully this all-time classic :) Luv her voice and innocent, sweet youth!!

Take Some Time -By Leon Hansen-

2008-06-13T12:07:00.002+08:00

While I was clearing my clutters of things from my room, I chanced upon this poem.. How well it sum up the need for us to slow down and smell the roses occasionally as life aint all about earning those big bucks.. it is a journey to savour.

Take some Time
- By Leon Hansen -

Take some time to smell the flowers
As you walk the paths of life

Take some time to ease the tensions
From the challenges and strife

Take some time to hear the birds sing
As they usher in the dawn
Though the day be just emerging
Too soon it will be gone

Take some time to watch the sunrise
Now and then a sunset too
Just be sure that seeking pleasure
Isn't all you ever do

Take some time to count your blessings
Though you feel they're not that great
You'll find they're more abundant
Than you thought; at any rate

Take some time to banish hatred
When and where you can
Just detest man's evil ways
And not your fellow man

Take some time to love your children
Every moment you are free
The benefits exceedeth
A university degree

Take some time to love your neighbour
And ever more important still

Take some time to love yourself
Or not many others will
And if you don't like that image
of yourself that others see

Take some time to see some changes
Be the best that you can be

Take some time to help another
Who you think might need a hand
You will find the satisfaction
Leaves you feeling sort of grand

Take some time to live by virtue
In the best way that is known,
And respect the rights of others
As equal to your own

Take some time to just appreciate
The fact that you are here
And to know that Higher Power
And to trust It without Fear

If you do these things with diligence
You will eventually be glad
If you don't attempt to do them
you may one day wish you had

Although this no doubt could impose
upon your life for seeking wealth.
There should be little question
That it could improve your health

And though you might not be as
wealthy nor drive so fine a car,
You'll find you will be richer
In other ways by far

Mulan - i'll make a man out of you

2008-05-01T02:04:00.001+08:00

Another fav song fr Mulan!!
bring out the 'man' in you..the guts to try new horizon and conquer ur fear!

Reflection-Christina Aguilera (Mulan)

2008-05-01T01:58:00.001+08:00

another all-time fav song i simply love:)

有過去的女人-le femme desperado mv

2008-04-28T11:10:00.001+08:00

my favourite song from this drama serial..
one of my fav song about women!!!

What I want out of my life!!!

2008-04-13T11:06:00.002+08:00

I want to feel, think, look and do good !

I want to have a job that I enjoy and love.

I want to teach and specialize in just PE and Science!!

I want to be more in-tuned with my inner self.

I want to go with the flow..down stream always

I want to do my best in achieving my dream to inspire and empower students.

I want to win over my students

I want to appreciate more of the beauty of life.

I want to be in control of my emotions and life.

I want to be positive and ever-connected to the world.

I want to be happy every single day.

I want to be flexible and adaptable.

I want to be with someone who loves and accepts me for who I am unconditionally

I want my life to be uplifting and meaningful.

I want to be free from excuses and half-truths

I want to embrace truth always and acceptance of life

I want a harmonious and happy family

I want to be able to laugh at myself and ever-ready to learn from mistakes.

I want to be a good friend, daughter and sister.

I want to be with an empowering school with empathy and good staff welfare and ever-compassionate leader.

I want to improve my teaching day by day, be it baby steps each time.

I want to have more patience in myself

I want to be healthy.

I want my financial freedom by the age of 40.

I want to find peace with my past and move on.

I want to lead life the way I enjoy most.

I want to find back my focus and direction of life.

I want to be lost and confused NO MORE!!!!

Right in the middle of Practicum

2008-03-22T05:10:00.002+08:00

Been ages since I last blog..
As usual.. my usual reason..Busy schedule..Busy..busy life..
Haha... not busy with relaxing or partying around the clock..
Yet..busy with fighting countless fires in my life... kind of emotional n rather very sensitive ones...
concerning my family... Now of cos... with another added to the list... my daily coping with my practicum so far... Haha.. I reckon that I should ve quite skilled in fire-fighting by the time I
completed this spectacular leap year... Indeed how spectacular!.. in terms of the twists and turns life throws at me so unexpectedly .. No doubt.. time can be quite tough and both mentally & physically draining... Nonetheless, with my strong friend support and of cos more faith n love in myself.. I am bettter equipped to handle such mind-boggling situation.

Love it or Hate it.. My surname can never be changed and this is a fact that I can never change. Haiz, this also means that I will always be implicated regardless of what I do.. Yes.. Dramatic soap opera or drama serials are fun n entertaining..But when it plays out right in front of you..with the greatest actresses n actors ( supposedly people whom U need to greet and look up to) being your seniors..How pretentious and hypocritical even ur so-called kins can be... Life is a paradox i guess... Let bygones be bygones.. What a smokescreen it turns out to be... Imagine I had been fooled too.. I seriously thought she has had realised her mistake and reconciled with my family.. Haha.. wat a fool we have been.. We all have been deceived!

Money woes or squabbles among even brothers can kill.. let alone among siblings? Now, i seriously see it with my own eyes... How one with her acid tongue and superb acting skills can go around sowing discord... Fine.. Be our guest.. Go on and do what you want.. Curse..swear... spread rumours about us..the most hated lot in our clan? watever... All i can say is that I know that truth prevails!! Time will tell it all... OUR CONSCIENCE is clear!! IF by doing so.. she and her rich hubby feel good n much better.. By all means.

As for now.. I shall hope for the best in my little sis's life... I have done my very best.. Time to move on.. and of cos... I seriously got to work hard for my final 4 weeks of training .. I have shown steady improvement..Keep it up gal!!
No doubt, your time management and instructions giving still need much polishing up..but rem..take baby steps ..U have improved no matter how small it may be... U can do it!
Yes..i noe.. I am beginning to enjoy the fruit of my labours..esp after little autis..boy complimented on my session..Thanks boy.. I will do my best .. U must be good boy okie too!!

Practicum 2..Tis time with more readiness & zest!!

2008-02-16T15:02:00.002+08:00

Time flies.. It seemed as if the NIEQuest thailand trip was just so over last month as my teammates and I were busy preparing for our bazaar @ Tanglin Mall a couple of Sat ago.. Now with CNY holidays over and almost all my assignments submitted other than Social Studies and Science report due, Here comes the next challenge of my final sem....Ta-dah....Teaching Practicum 2..

2 whole mths of teaching attachment @ a brand new sch over @ the East..
I am full of apprehension and excitement..to embark on this final hurdle of my education path @ NTU/NIE.. The final lap to the completion of my training and of cos...Graduation!!!

After being more aware of myself and the way of life around us,
I am more ready and prepared mentally at least towards the new chapter of my education and of cos career. I am still new and raw but definitely this time, with the right mindset and preparation, I am ready to share whatever I have in store for the little young minds and also to derive pleasure in this learning journey... This is no doubt a 2-way process of learning be it teachers-students n vice versa..

All ze best to myself and my fellow coursemates!
Let us conquer the final hurdle and celebrate with joy and triumph come May during our graduation party!!

Sunshine back into my life.. A swinging Bachelorette :)

2008-01-26T01:53:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Guru, Abraham Hicks and of cos my newfound friend last yr, Eug...
I finally feel that my life is restoring back to order and sunshine and happiness embracing my days ahead.. Yippee! It seems as though the storm is now over and the rainbow is out high in the sky to beautify my day! Nah..This all boils down to my perspective of life and the way i condition my moods n thinking.. Indeed Happiness is a choice, this lies entirely in my hand and no one can choose this for me. They can try all means to upset or anger me but as long as i am in control of myself emotionally with the right affirmation and love for myself to know that my happiness is paramount, getting upset by others aint bringing me anywhere closer to Happiness within.. So why waste my energy and time? To remain high and happy can be possible as long as i am in control of my perspective and way of thinking..

It seems all of a sudden I have emerged wiser and more contented with life as I finally grasped this concept of the Law of Attraction. Whenever you are happy, you emit a bolt of positive energy around and this in turn attract pple towards you as they want to be as happy as u.
The recent cycling trip @ ECP was the best example of my successful application of this abstract concept.. For the first time in my life for the past 5 years, never had I felt such sense of accomplishment with max satisfaction and joy despite of the minor hiccups which I handled with a calm and clear-headed mind, so unlike the usual panicky spider i often used to be called.

Hey hey, I have grown to be more in control of my life and of cos, more appreciative of myself n my strength.. I no longer feel that I am just a plain Jane out there.. I am instead a unique, sporty and outgoing gal.. not tat supermodel style but definitely a decent-looking gal with her sweet smile n dimple. :) To have or not to have a bf no longer matters now to me as long as i enjoy my life and job..teaching. Live each day as it is to be.. Contentment... I will be happy with my humble lot in life. With my queer way of thinking & basic criteria for my special someone, I believe getting hooked won't be that soon for me.

Liang Shan Bo Yu Zhu Li Ye Engpin Subbed

2008-01-22T04:42:00.001+08:00

My latest Fav Love Song.. Cao Ge's Coolz.. haha..

Hmm..wonder when will I ever get to sing such beautiful duet with that mystery Romeo in my life? Haha.. sounds so very wrong..Wat the hell! As though I am tat desperate..Omg! Of cos not.. After a rejuvenating trip to Buriram/Bangkok with my dear Nie Quest teammates, I had realised much more about what i truly want in life.. Maybe I am picky or fussy, but to seek what I want in this special someone.. I must admit is not an easy task..cos I am for a soulmate, a friend, a confidante n companion for life whom I accept and embrace into my humble life for whoever he may be.. with Unconditional Love, Personal Space, Maturity for both to support,grow n develop. everyday's a learning experience in the marathon of lessons through Life. Queer I may sound but i ain't looking for Security or Someone to take care of me in old age..Both of us being comfortable as who we are and accepting the cold hard truth of the fragility of life.. Nothing is permanent.. So How can one claim to seek Security from the other half of your life who is seeking Security in life too? Security is what many want in life but sadly to say, it can never be,excuse me, with the fragility of life,can our lifespan ever guaranteed at the first place? Cos no one knows for sure! Perhaps only our almighty God. So how can us, females always been seeking Security in our lives from the special someone to be? With terrorism and much uncertainties in the world happenings, Security comes from Fear. If there is no fear, will there be a need for security and let along military if us, humans could ever learn to co-exist and embrace one another? Survival of the fittest.I suppose..with the Evolution of life.. Co-existence in peace n harmony.. idealistic dreams..Someday, who noe? the ultimate world peace... though i must admit i am cynical about this too..but when u ve a dream, u gotten protect n live it!
So way to go..Better myself to becoming a better educator to touch lives towards a non-violent society perhaps? I will try n wish me luck.

Yu Jian

2008-01-22T03:51:00.001+08:00

One of my favourite Stefanie Sun song.. Also the song I sang w fellow JOHer @ Yunnan Village during cultural performance..those happy times with the kids..How i miss them.. the mountains..the vast clear sky..of cos their beautiful blanket of stars when night falls... Someday..Perhaps I will be back there with a significant half? Hmm.. Coming to think about it.. Even without that someone in my life, i can still go back...as long as i finish serving my bond..Who knows...Anything is possible :P

A Tribute to my deares Hammie..

2007-12-02T04:16:00.000+08:00

I hope I have been a gd owner who have had showered u with TLC..
Your demise came as a shock to me..so unexpectedly when I had been way too busy with exams n final year project.. The last time I saw ur bright cute eyes had been just a couple of days ago..when I was still up in the dawn to edit my fyp report..
There you were running on ur orange wheel, accompanying me through the night till wee hours of morning... You simply looked so adorable! with ur paws n fur... esp the way u brushed urself or the way u nibble on the sunflower seeds or your fav carrots.. Simply irresistible..

U made my day when I was so down..so lovesick..so stressed...so fed up with my family woes..
U have been my greatest confidante since my Hall 3 days.. entertaining me when I was up mugging for exams...
I hope your passing away had been a peaceful one as it seemed..
At least u looked so at ease , deep in sleep when I discovered ur carcass in ur little purple hut..
I guess Fate always play tricks on people..now that my sickening n mind-boggling exams are finally over..with more time for me to play with u.. with me looking forward to spending another yr of Xmas with u b4 I leave for Thailand exchange trip..
Now that you are gone.. I will miss you greatly, Hammie... Loving u always... I will never forget u.. my first and last pet..( haiz cos i promise my parents, aint tat animal lovers tat I wont get another pet when still living with them)..at least for now till I get my own apartment when I reach 35...
Adieu my darling Hammie... Farewell..

Colbie Caillat - Realize

2007-12-02T04:15:00.001+08:00

Colbie Caillat - Realize

2007-12-02T04:08:00.001+08:00

Take time for me to realise that we are not meant to be after all..1st love may not always end up as happy ever after.. I awaken at last..a super overdue one indeed... Love is blind n unconditional though..but it can be exhausting too on a one-sided part. It has been just so naive.. Back then, to tat someone, It was all about Lust.. Puppy love.. Curiosity.. I had been so very wrong... All those feelings should have been kept in silence eternally.. All the fond memories are just so ephemeral... At least..Now that I have learnt and wise up...

Teardrops On My Guitar (Hermione/Harry/Cho Triangle)

2007-12-02T04:01:00.001+08:00

Hmm.. tink Hermione is more focused into her work than to get mixed up with bgr ..hehe.. Recall my watching 1 of harry potter movie with his pals n him.. Doubt i will ever be watching the final one with them once my final decision is made.Only Fate and Time can tell...

Naruto-teardrop on my guitar

2007-12-02T03:56:00.001+08:00

As the year 2007 comes to a close..I guess it is timely for this chapter of my life..to finally wrap up... Hmm..Recalling Naruto is one of his few fav anime.. I guess i just complete my final task and come 26 dec when i leave for Thailand Exchange trip..with a brand new year 2008 to be spent at a different land.. May i heal completely n embrace all the other poss loves coming into my life

孫燕姿 - 我也很想他

2007-12-02T03:51:00.001+08:00

Haiz.. Farewell to my dear Hammie.. She had peacefully passed away in her sleep..Her death marks the end of my dearest confidante since my darkest days 2yrs ago when my heart been shattered n hurt so badly..Suddenly, the hurt and all the past seems to return..I remember how i used to talk to Hammie whenever I miss him so much.. Now that she's gone ..as i promise myself..soon..real soon.. My role of "guardian angel" silently behind the scene is to cease soon for me to move on totally... to let everything come to a closure n let it go... Rest in Peace, my dearest Hammie! U ve been a great pet..friend..confidante n playmate! I will always remember u.

♥Colbie Caillat - Bubbly (lyrics)♥

2007-11-23T15:20:00.001+08:00

What a soothing song... for calming my nerves.. esp with my recent panic attack and haiz.. my screwing up of exams.

20. The Sound of Music - Edelweiss

2007-11-07T06:34:00.001+08:00

One of my Fav Song from "The Sound of Music" All-time Favourite... In fact, one of my bday gift received is a mini music box of this song..

Joyeux anniversaire à moi

2007-11-02T18:48:00.000+08:00

Yippee! My very first bday gift for myself.. My dream phone at last= Sony Ericisson Cybershot K770i.. After pampering myself, High time for me to... focus on my debut guitar performance with class n of cos..my exams n fyp!

May there be lots of bday luck this Nov for me in Love, Work and Health!!!
=) Jiayou gal... Love yourself more n regain the confidence in u...
Make Mr & Ms Crabby pple who put u down.. seen the different U and eat their words!
The best is yet to come, okie.,.pple..

Be that little superhero Gal u want ..deep down in u.. U been there b4... rekindle the flame again.. All Ze best...Chelle..

Always look on the bright side of life - Monty Python

2007-10-21T21:51:00.001+08:00

The very song to self-motivation!!! Ganbatte ne!
1 more mth to endure.. Jiayou.

I Love You Always Forever -- Tarzan

2007-10-21T21:38:00.001+08:00

Yippee! After such a long long search.. I finally found out what that Beach Boy dvd featured english song is!!.. My fav!! So here it is .. The upbeat song by Donna Lewis.. :P

Life is Like a Boat by Rie Fu

2007-10-18T00:42:00.001+08:00

My Fav Anime Song...
Sum up my feelings when I was really down, feeling so empty and lost..but thank god! I have awakened eventually...

Somewhere Over the Rainbow

2007-10-17T09:43:00.001+08:00

Somewhere in my life.. The Rainbow will come eventually after the rain.. Now, it's been a rough, stormy patch to go through.. Endure gal, hang in there... 1.5mths more to go..To the long-awaited liberation.. Faith and Believe in myself... Yes, I can survive through.

Reflection-Christina Aguilera (Mulan)

2007-10-13T08:39:00.001+08:00

In this journey of life, it is all about reflecting every now and then your choices and decisions made in life... Be it a minor or major change to your life. Letting go of my past to move on and embrace what the Future behold for in my career.. Yes. I may be late in some of my skill acquisition but it's never too late for me to self-improve to increase my self-efficacy towards a better me.. Keep on going gal..

Bleach Meets Disney 2

2007-10-02T09:36:00.001+08:00

Part 2... Enjoy folks. East meet West.. :)

Bleach Meets Disney

2007-10-02T09:35:00.001+08:00

What an exotic combo!!! Luving it..Funny too at times :)

Awakened at Last with New Perspective of Life

2007-10-02T06:08:00.000+08:00

A new mth of Oct.. with...
My brand new perspective of Life..
Metamorphosis At last.. Been 2 long cold years deep within as everything within froze up...
Healing close to completion..Ready to go and Embrace Love into my Life..
No longer trapped in my past...
No more waiting in vain...for someone in infinity...
My life has been out of focus too long...
Helping to the best of my ability.... silently behind the scene if I could..
Thinking naively that I could be a "guardian angel" to open doors of opportunities into thou world of reality, unconditionally...No Thanks? No Appreciation? Watsoever.. No expectation, to be exact as the higher one's expectation may be, the greater the disappointment too..
Anyway, issit always to be a Win,win situation for you and me..in the name of friendship?
But is this the true spirit of Giving? Helping others regardless of any benefits... Just purely
for the joy of helping... paying it forward... bringing smile into others' lives...
Why must there always be this and that about... benefits for you and me and everyone else..
Pragmatic Singaporeans... indeed..i reckon.. a way of survival...
and perhaps the way we have been educated in our old system...
After so long, I finally realised I am heading to a burnout... Fatigue overwhelmed me..
I have learnt at last that I have erred and perhaps... letting it go for good...
is the best option I have been blinded to for so long...
Me and myself.. my soulmate... confidante...

In life, we sometimes have to let go and allow for what is new to enter into the open spaces created by our losses. In doing so, you are honoring what has left you and welcoming the new into your life with open space, an open mind, and an open heart... Way back into Love

Thanks Dad for ur timely help! U r the best!

2007-09-24T00:53:00.000+08:00

Arigato Pa..Thanks alot Dad for your timely help.. You r the best man!..
You Save my day! Esp when I am so shorthanded and actually been nursing an old knee injury relapse since that fall, all alone in the wilderness.. thanks to my misjudgement and some so-called frenz's insenstivity.. Wat to do .. No $, no talk.. Aint paying much other than transport cost and occasional meals..How high can my expectation be of such foc help.. REality of life...( As I am bloggin about it now, I recall how disappointed I was with this someone.. A friend in need is a friend indeed. Seriously, I doubt that then.. At that very moment, I knew no matter what I would never leave mya so-called friend alone in such situation.. I have wised up..
Thanks to dad, I manage to complete much work for the day.. Xie Xie! Really appreciate your help!
Imagine roughing it out with your gurung daughter in the wilderness for her fyp on a wet, cosy Sunday morning when you could be happily in dreamland still hibernating or even enjoying ur Sunday with a cuppa of hot beverage, reading newspapers without rushing off for work..
Impressive, issit ? Or at least to me, not all daddies in the world will do such a thing..to be bothered..or perhaps cos I am very stressed up over my fyp and I must graduate by next year as I am under an education bond currently.. Watever, the reasons may be, I am honestly touched by my dad's help. Though he is a man of few words whenever you approach him for advice, but he is certainly a loving dad who shows more through his actions.

Your actions speak louder than words indeed! I am touched and I promise u , dad tat I will start afresh, get myself up and going again to building a better future for myself and the family. I will do my best to lead by example to Gracie tat Life is tough, yes. with its many learning curves.. disappointments, hurts, stress, expectations etc.but with tenacity and patience, we and the familiy can tide through the tough times...

Looking back now, this is the first time in the past 5 years that I have had an enjoyable bonding session with my retiring dad.. As peculiar or unique as I can be, such a session which most reckon it to be a chat over coffee, catching a movie or even just a meal together, as peculiar as I can be in person, our bonding session turned out to be a wild Wild Wet day of fun and sweat in the cosy "backyard" of our dear Mother Nature.. Haha.. sounds so exotic ,issit..my frenzs? Just another similiar case of a cleaner auntie calling her an environment maintenance officer.. Get my hint?
Wanna make a guess, anyone?
...
... No prize though, but of cos u ve the sense of "winning"
haha.more of giving an intelligent guess.

...
... Here comes the mystery location and our bonding activity...
So it was actually ...... finding fun out of work.. Sad but true.. working on my fyp even on a cosy wet Sunday.. ( hint hint, so understand why i said wild wild wet rite? Indeed, been a wet session esp when we were caught in the rain... )Thank god, my dad with his qigong skills can " tide through" such "stormy" condition.. Haha.. his generally good health is a plus lah, though kind of high in cholestrol n oops..abit of stout, old man liao..

As for the venue, it is the hightest point of SG.. our famous scenic hilll of greenery in close proximity to city...BTNR... Mother Nature's "backyard, dun you agree,in some sense..

All in all,
I am still a true blue Daddy's Girl.. Hmm..shall work towards my long-term goal of betterment for family.. Esp in 4 years time when Dad is retiring..Ganbattne..

Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends (Short Version)

2007-09-20T01:13:00.001+08:00

The inner voice in me... Pls wake Me up When this SEpt comes to an end...
Embrace the Change and Show the True blue spirit of survival and strength in U!
Born Free again...Gal...

Wake Me up when this Sept ends...

2007-09-20T00:59:00.000+08:00

Below's a nice children novel I chanced upon one fine day at my school library which I would like to share..
So poetic about the truth of changes in life.. the inevitability around us every single day...

Eventually, I come to embrace the major change in my life... coming to accept with the harsh cold fact.. Wasting away precious time..The pointless waiting.. All in the name of character building? Nah.. i have been self-denying for the past mths... Oh god knows since when.. But at last..at last.. I have arrived.. to a wiser me.. So the voice in me..Please Wake me up when this Sept ends...

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Change- Getting to know about Ebb and Flow

By Laura Greene (1981)

Change is a part of life,

It is a step from here to there.

The size or shape of a thing may change.

The feeling or location of a thing may change.

Change may be fast or slow, good or bad.

Change may make me happier or sadder,

Richer or poorer, but change is a part of life

All things in nature change.

Things change with time.

Time brings slow change.

In time seeds grow, and become plants

More time passes and the plants become flowers.

Time continues to pass

And the flowers

Fade,

Die

And finally return to Earth.

Seasons change.

When the air is warm, the leaves are green.

When the air turns cold, the leaves turn color.

The sun makes the difference.

Shadows change.

In the morning, my shadow is long and skinny.

At midday my shadow is short and fat.

Light makes the difference.

Sounds change.

Sometimes the air is so quiet, I can hear a bird fly.

Sometimes the air is so noisy, I can’t hear a bird sing.

Wind makes the difference.

Things change because of incidents.

The accident may be little.

I had a full glass of milk.

In a moment the glass was empty.

My elbow made the difference.

The accident may be big.

Yesterday there was a white house on the corner.

Today it’s gone.

A fire made the difference.

People change too.

They change on the outside….

My skin changes.

When I was a baby, my skin was red and wrinkled.

Now my skin is smooth.

When I grow older, I’ll be wrinkled again.

My height changes

When my jeans were new, they were much too long.

Now they’re old and much too short.

Growing makes the difference……

And people change on the inside.

Feelings change.

I used to be afraid to go to school.

But now I’m not, in fact, I like it.

Learning makes the difference.

Moods change.

It’s fun to be alone in my room and pretend to do great deeds.

But if I’m alone at night, and there are scary

Shadows, it’s not fun any more.

The dark makes the difference.

Tastes change

Tuna fish sandwiches used to be my favourite lunch.

But now I like macaroni and cheese better.

I don’t know what made the difference.

People cause change.

We change each other……

When I moved away, my friend Jenny was sad.

She missed me.

But now we’re pen pals, and she’s happy.

Friendship made the difference.

We change the land.

I can make the land more beautiful by planting a tree or I can ruin the land by being careless.

All of us make the difference.

People change themselves

If I want to, I can work hard and learn to do things better.

If I don’t want to try new things, I’ll stay the same

I make the difference.

Life around us is always changing.

Change is part of life.

Sometimes I like the change.

Sometimes I don’t

But everything changes

Even me!

Happy Teachers' Day folks!!!

2007-09-01T13:39:00.001+08:00

End of yet another Temp Job.. Jumprope Pgm

2007-08-30T17:08:00.000+08:00

Today marks the closure of my temp job... JUMPrope Pgm @ BSSS...
Full of mixed feelings on this last day of work
... Happy that I can focus wholeheartedly on my FYP n sch now...
... Sad cos I am going to miss them.. Sob..Sob.. esp when I am getting to know my participants much better, creating much rapport..when more can be done to touch lives.. Then it's the end of job.. Reality of life.. Nothing is forever.. Not even Love, IMO.. Hmm.. But then some of them can be really playful at times, nonetheless they mean no real harm, anyway, aint they just kids... Patience... I certainly need to work on this aspect more... To become a very patient educator... Honestly.. This is a virtue I need to inculcate more in myself in order to tide through all the storms in my family, personal and career choices. I have chosen a path few would take and Only I can go through this challenging journey of mindgame with my very self.. of cos with my unwavering strong friend support and encouragements spurring me on. I am really glad to ve such pool of true friends.. A friend in need is a friend indeed. However, I too have had my fair share of pretentious and hypocritical "friends" too..

... Disappointed too at times as I have failed to reach out to some of those bochap,AP students whom I should ve tried my best but too late.. A great learning point for me though.
... Relieved as I am at last out of all the touchy.. working politics issues "saga" I may ve unwittedly entangled myself into... Or Perhaps.. He just simply can't stand my working style or look??? Who noes.. Haha.. Who cares anyway now that my job's done, though my pay aint cashed in yet.. so.. Oops.. I better watch what I am saying...
... Contented n pleased with myself... I have proved my point. or at least my frenzs wrong... A test of my patience and faith.. Learning to be giving unconditionally without even the expectation of appreciation from the recipients..( Honestly, this aspect is tough.. Really takes alot for one to be so giving and understanding).. At least, I noe I am more in control of my emotions. Work and emotions must never mix.. at least for me to be focused. Such working relationship can be really testing at times when ur partner dun see your point and your constraints faced when the higher authority always may seem to ve something against you... Or perhaps I am just being oversensitive. Our working rapport was further strained by our past experiences and collaborations.. Nonetheless.. despite of our past and difference, we did what we had to and our job had at least, I am certain of .. accomplished to the best of our abilities.
In addition, I have learned much about event planning and organisation.. No plan is foolproof, nothing beat this job when all your prior plan fell through when therewere times of poor communication and coordination with all concerned parties..Time and Logistics pblm had also been the other major limiting factors.

All in all, Time to close this chapter of my working experience and look forward to what my future beholds for me...

[MV] Jay Chou - A Secret I Cannot Tell (不能说的秘密)

2007-08-25T22:46:00.001+08:00

Secret to making a relationship last... Or the deepest part of us.. We never wanna reveal... To each..his or her definition... Heard that this is a pretty nice movie.. But wat a pity.. No one to watch with... Little Gracie went with her frenzs... Kinda of weird to watch it alone..Nvm.. Patience.. Shall wait for the dvd to be out as the next to add to my collection...

What makes Relationship Last... ... I wonder... ...

2007-08-25T22:39:00.000+08:00

A pretty tough question..
Open-ended without a definite right or wrong answer as it all boils down to one's definition of relationship... This can be a parent-child, teacher-student, romantic kind or just purely platonic friendship... So actually what makes relationship last? I decided to go google it and here is what I found so far... Interesting answers found thus far...

think the key to being in a relationship is to be able to go with the flow of things. Every human being is a dynamic in nature. As is any relationships that they get into. Things are never constant and always changing. That is the one real constant in life. If you're the type of person who can run with the changes and if you're with someone you really care about who can also do the same, I think that the relationship will work out fine. A relationship is all about caring about someone. Each person giving and taking a little here and there. It's not about one person, nor is it about how much people love one another. Sure, love is important, but compatibility and being able to change and grow together is more.
- LISA BROWN... @ www.yelp.com forums page..

Steve Perry pointed out yesterday that relationships aren’t a matter of finding a perfect mirror image of self. They are more in the nature of completing yourself, finding someone who can teach you and show you things about yourself you could not find on your own. Couldn’t agree more.Still, the basic point remains: unless you would consider yourself attractive, it is unrealistic to expect others to be attracted to you. Saying that “the person inside me” is attractive, wonderful, spiritual, loving…is a beautiful act of faith. Learning to express that person so that others can see him, well, that’s a little tougher. The same point of view would lead us to seeing everyone as wonderful, spiritual, loving…deep inside. And so I believe we are. But how many of us have that kind of vision?
- Steve Barnes... Excerpt from his blog= http://darkush.blogspot.com/

I totally second Lisa's take on going with the flow of things, IMO... adaptability.. Life is dynamic indeed..whether we like it or not.. Changes are everywhere all the time as we progress. Eureka... My final answer to the question above is "The ability to change and grow together" accepting, complementing one another and completing one another's equation in life towards a holistic way of living and loving perhaps.. This is what make Relationships of all kinds last...IMO..

Honestly... This question initially had left me dumbfounded for a while especially when such question had been asked by a nonchalant frenz who loves his freedom and personal space very so much..perhaps he...IMO... He might be diagnosed as commitment phobic or even? (Nonetheless, I must give him his due credit for his commitment to family though).. Haha..It all depends.. Hmm.. who knows... perhaps only in my eyes... He might just behave so different in front of other females etc... After all, we have simply known each other too well... To the extent that we are numb to the flaws of each other after so long... Acceptance and Mutual Tolerance bah.. in the name of friendship or social partnership... Pls dun be mistaken.. We too have had our shares of disagreements and unhappy experiences communicating or even working with each other.
So after dwelling so much on the question, I decided to post the question back to the very one who asked.. Guess what was his given answer?? A politically sound one of cos.. nothing new... " I don't know."

Coming to think more about it, perhaps this question not that unexpected though..cos we were talking about our envision or goal in life at least for the next few years as we approach the Big 3os... in our lifetime... I ended up sharing briefly about how I see myself to be a teacher commited to her work and students. This will most prob be my central focus of life for the next 5 years...Seeking a lasting Relationship is probably too complex and mind-boggling for someone like me who is still moving on slowly yet steadily from past experiences... The pain had become numb by now... with much lessons learnt about life.. Patience.. Forgiveness.. Acceptance of truth.

Too much for me to juggle too while copin with my calling in life.. To teach is to touch lives... with unconditional love for my students... Have learnt much about unconditional love in recent years when it is all about giving help and love willingly without seeking appreciation... If there is to be, it feels Good to be appreciated by others but even when there isnt any, this is just a way of life with all kinds of people... Certainly not all will be appreciative... After all... To give.. To teach..is paying it forward... Perhaps one fine day, many many years down the road, the whole cycle of giving and helping might have expanded so widely that some day it comes back to you.. As you know.. What comes around goes around... How true...

Imagination To Spice up Life.. So never stop imagining..

2007-08-25T00:11:00.001+08:00

Being a teacher to be..
I envision to become one who can encourage my young learners to tap on their imagination and
enjoy the learning journey... ESp before the reality of life and its harsh facts suck out life and hope in them.. Patience, Faith and Youth is the way to go.. to enliven their childhood and shape their young minds... So let them be as imaginative as they can be... but of course within the constraints of the school settings and my abilities.. So go on, boys and girls.. Imagine what will be like if rainbow can one day melt like ice and sprinkle down as coloured streaks of rays and water droplets.. Hmm.. Read on... Let Ms Joanne Schaff enlighten us...

Can you Imagine

Can you imagine
A rainbow in the sky,
Melting like raindrops
Way up high?
And when the coloured
Raindrops fall,
They paint the grass, the trees
And all.

Then all the boys and girls
Will see
yellow grass,
A purple tree,
Red and blue splatters
On you and me!
Bright-coloured insects
Of orange and pink.
Would you like those oranges?
What do you think?

Can you imagine
How a rainbow would taste?
Like juicy orange slices,
Strawberry jello,
Icy, green sherbet
And ice cream that's yellow.

Can you imagine
How a rainbow would sound.
When it shimmers and twinkles
Then hits the ground?
With a plop and squish
Each colour would splatter;
Then melt into puddles
And droplets of water

_________________________Joanne Schaff___________________________

Hmm.. Any interesting yet simple poem for all young learners too..
Imagine if this was to be true, how are our views and perspective of rainbow going to be like?...
More varied, I suppose... To each his own..To me.. It would be a phemoneon of all time by Mother Nature, perhaps..

High School Musical - We're All In This Together

2007-08-25T00:02:00.001+08:00

We're All in This Together.. The Journey of Life.. Folks... Way to go, pals...
Ganbattne...:)

Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry MUSIC VIDEO

2007-08-24T23:45:00.001+08:00

Simply Lovin it...
Movin on steadily...

Yet another Hectic Semester! Good Luck :)

2007-08-19T19:09:00.000+08:00

In the blink of an eye, 2007 will come to a close in a couple of months' time as my life become hectic and full of events.. school assignments.. tons of them.. countless project works now that Year 4 Sem 1 has commenced... But with positive thinking and regular destressing routine ( running and gym workout), I have the faith that I can survive through. Jiayou!!

As I look at my daily planner of events, Oh my god.. Time to be a Little SuperHero Gal..
Nov will be an exceptionally XXiong mth for me.. In fact, the highlight of this second half of the year as it is the month of:

- my birthday...03 Nov... Haiz.. how to celebrate..
Dear kaki..cyn ..Ly..Meiyi.. paiseh.. need to postpone till late Nov liao..

- Deadline of 05 Nov... countless assignments with high weightage...CCE..CCM..CED etc meaning that they make or break my grades.

- my dajie's big day.. should be still on-going... thank god, at last she is on the road to speedy recovery.. auspicious 17 Nov
( I would definitely be extremely busy helping out, being her bridemaid...)

- Last examination paper of my NIE BSc deg... CAB430 Biotechnology.. my last mugging of the next few years..Unless I try to be smar aleck again, furthering my studies to a Master deg... Needless to say, completing my 4 yrs bond to education is my top priority upon graduation.
Guess what day is it, 20 Nov, just 3 days after my dajie's wedding day.. Wish me luck ... Must be disciplined this final time to revise early.

-CCE Written Response Paper ( In short, written test that will be graded)

-FYP Report Submission... 22 Nov...
-FYP Poster Presentation... 29 Nov... The final verdict after mths of sweat and tears even towards the completion of challenging yet intriguing project I have.

What a spread issit? Typically of an average Singaporean..
Life in SG is always so eventful and fast-paced? It depends... I reckon it all boils down to time management.. Something I need to work on constantly to better manage my life...
Hmm.. I realise I have matured much over the past few mths and overcome the countless adversities last year... Adversity builds characters indeed.. No doubt, some of those decisions I have made back then last year are still here to stay, cos oops.. I can be quite a stubborn gal who want to test things out with time... I have no regrets even if the outcome is not to my favour... I am sure this will be a learning process for me too towards acceptance of truth, patience and paying it forward. I am just following my heart and mind, of course not forgetting that I need to be pragmatic and be a loving friend to myself.

After all, Life's about choices...
To be or not to be... It is your take..

20.07.2007.. the day I braved thru rain @ BTNR

2007-07-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

The clock is ticking away every second of this special day..
Special in the sense that it is the only day.. in fact once in a life time to have such a double match in a date...as years come and go...
I consider this is maybe why I have had received a few sms greetings on this special day of a lifetime.. This is the special factor for most people on this planet Earth..I suppose..

As for me, how special this day had been for me was that I had accomplished something I never expected myself to do.. A commendable achievement, at least to me..
So exactly what had i achieved, you may be wondering... Nothing earth-breaking nor spectacular.. More of I having overcome yet another seemingly impossible task for girls, at least to my kaki.. I survived through a heavy rain "storm", Cat 2 perhaps ( In the SAF weather categorising) while I was in the midst of my forest survey, laying out transect belts.

*** I am a survivor!!!*** In fact, heyhey.. I had survived through a sudden Ticks attack too..hehe.. no joke.. Certainly never a gd experience to have...

To cut the crap, I succeeded in navigating my way out of the damp, darkening forest of our famous Bukit Timah Nature Reserve in the rain.. Opps.. Keep mum about this to my parents though, cos to them, this would definitely be a NO-no... Imagine the recent cases of falling trees and branches, crashing trekkers/nature lovers @ forests to death..

Yes, this may sound totally insane to u, reader but to me, this is no doubt an accomplishment i am proud of ..For I had kept my cool..at least I tried my best, of cos with the help of my capable, combat trained FYP asst..

[ Oh yah, some background info, I am currently doing my Final Year Project, under the guidance of my prof, Dr Lum on a forest survey/ ecology project.. Thus, this means that forest bashing, away from the usual walkin trails/path will be part and parcel of this challenging yet intriguing project for me.. I must admit I am a nature lover and though my fate of project and its progress depends alot on Mother Nature and the uncontrollable Weather.. So far, this project has been a great learning journey, with me getting pro and better in my navigation skills using a compass and finding my way in , out and around the many similiar-looking trees after trees to get to my study site, near dairy farm pass.]

Way to go , ger... Ganbatte ne.. Jungle Gal & Her 2nd Home... BTNR... ...

How to touch a girl.. by Jojo.. Nice song..:)

2007-06-03T02:15:00.000+08:00

Mmmm
I think I could like youI already do
Feelings can grow butThey can go away too
You’re takin my hand
Lookin’ into my eyes
Don’t be in a rush toGet me tonight
I Feel something happening
Could this be a spark?
To satisfy me baby
Gotta satisfy my heart
Do you know how to touch a girl?

If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what’s on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You’ll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

I think I could like you
But I keep holding back
Cause I can’t seem to tellIf you’re fiction or fact
Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are
Deep down inside
Do you feel somethin happenin?
Could this be for real?
I don’t know right now but tonight we’ll reveal

Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so muchFirst I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what’s on my mind?or am I just for show?
You’ll go far in this worldIf you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

Bring me some flowers
Conversation for hours
To see if we really connect
And baby if we doOoh i’ll be givin’ all my love to you
Ohh

Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what’s on my mind?
Or am I just for show?

You’ll go far in this worldIf you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?(yeah, yeah)Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
You’ll go far in this worldIf you know how to touch a girl

lt's all over now! Time for a well-deserved break

2007-04-20T23:30:00.000+08:00

Finally my practicum had concluded...Another chapter of my career had just been closed.. at least this can be considered a closure more or less though I do have to meet up with my sup on coming wed. Hmm... I do have much editing and tidying up of my file for submission though.
Nonetheless, mentally.. I can feel the load off my shoulder at last..
No more 7am-7pm for a poor time manager like me...
No more fear for rowdy kids who can really be too much a match for exhausted me..
HOwever, I can't deny tat I am touched by the many gifts - handmade cards from my pupils...
Perhaps.. I do miss these little rascals too despite all that exhaustion and my poor class management...

Hmm.. just got to keep my fingers crossed for at least a minimal pass this time.
I know I had fallen short of the expectation... I have much to buck up.
So now is the only upcoming vacation for me to rejuvenate and better myself to help others..
Hopefully, by next week, I could resume my regular run, swim and volunteering.. :P

I am Back!!

2007-04-15T11:43:00.001+08:00

Yoz folks..

A Big Hello... I am back at last..
After a long period of hibernation and search of finding back my lost soul?..
Of course not! I didn't lost my soul.. It was just that I have been too preoccupied
with my teaching practicum which is finally going to be over in no time.. 5 more days to go!

Meanwhile, back then in mid-Jan, I was seriously contemplating whether to quit blogging for good after all I am still a rather private person. Perhaps the good old Dear Diary approach still serve its purpose for me. Now that I am back with my first comeback blog entry, it should be obvious that I have decided to resume and revive my blogspot.com

This shall still be the one and only chelle311 blogspot.. A place where I share my thoughts and joys with people. Complaints perhaps too..in a discrete manner though.. mind you.. with the stringent Internet law nowadays. I better watch what I have to say.

that's about it for now.Tatta.. Back to my final week of lesson planning..

I am Back!!

2007-04-15T11:43:00.000+08:00

My 1st half-marathon:Std Charter Run 06

2006-12-06T00:32:00.000+08:00

Yeah! I did it!

I survived the 21.1km.. though my timing of 3hr3mins26mins wasnt actually that fantastic or even close to the average timing for this year's half-marathon of 2hr38mins.. Just knew about this and my standing amongst the runners through the official website.. Yap.. somewhat disappointing.. but not discouraged... I shall try again... Running can be rather addictive man!

I shall train earlier and aim for 2hr 30mins next year.. Honestly, with my old ankle injury, slight anaemia conditn.. plus my lack of training.. just at most, a week of intense running after my exams .. It is quite an achievement to have completed the entire distance.. At least I didn't cheat as I saw a few runners cutting short the full dist. I think I ran close to 13 km and walked the final 6-8 km ah...Oh yah.. slowing down too to take some photos of the nice views using hp camera & to reply to a couple of sms during the final lap.. Wahahaha.. No wonder.. i so slow right..

Somewhat a leisure run for me too after my nice pacer, Mr. Z ( the chap in above pix) proceed on to "chase" that pretty chick with hair tied up in a red band.. Oh pls dun be mistaken, Mr. Z aint that ungentlemanly ah, was motivating and pushing me on since the 8th km when I started to slow down much .. but due to my ill discipline and exhaustion, I managed to convince him to go ahead and run for his best timing while i shall meet him at the finishing point.. Better clarify this for him, if not..hehe..if not the swinging bachelor on the lookout may end up missing a few good catch amongst the younger female readers of my blog...not much though i suppose.. but just in case ah.. haha...

So any fellow frenzs in her early 20s, interested to get to know Mr. Z better? do let me know okie ;> shall send u his blog site at least..or even hp if he allows.. hehe...

Anyway, a big thanks to Mr. Z for being my pacer and company during the first 15 km.. He's good, man.. clocking a time of abt 2hr 30mins without any prior training cos he was a lastmin replacement for my cousin. I suppose his regular running really helps then..

Nonetheless, I endured through and completed the race at least..A pat on my back... :) gd effort!

"Run your own Race... Outdo yourself"

Come Dec 2007, I shall cya fellow runners...

Happy Birthday, dear Chelle...

2006-11-03T01:56:00.000+08:00

I have completed exactly a quarter of century plus a yr of my journey of Space n Time on this planet Earth.. Congrats...gal.. U have survived thus far...
What's more to come in this long neverending journey till u return back to soil.. ashes to ashes, dust to dust.. No one knows ..perhaps only our almighty God may have a slightest idea of what's my destiny...my fate ahead... to be like
Anyway.. Got to live in the present.. not in the past..regretting my past mistakes nor chasing after the future .. so preoccupied that I lose myself in the real time of the present moment..

So what r my birthday wishes this time?
Nothing special..i suppose..other than the usual unlimited wants...
the neverending list...
a nice bouquet of forget-me-not w pretty roses...
the ever-popular stylish Crumpler bag..sporty too..
a holiday trip to Hongkong to go chill out..
shop n eat.. n see dear KS...
a luxury cruise to the Phuket...
a backpacking trip round Europe..like Italy, Spain, etc
Now... a more practical n feastible request to dear friends out there reading...a big hint okie..
( a wide Smile... :)
More of a need than want...
a durable, pleasant looking laptop case/pouch for my dear Toshiba Tecra M5..
High capability, though sad to say,
it may look kinda of old model design, not as sleek nor stylish as cyn or shy's Fujitsu. I even had a frenz who commented that she had mistaken it as a 2nd-hand purchase initially.. Sad to hear such comment then, but coming to think about it,nah.. i care less .. as long as my dear TTM5 serves me well.. why care much abt appearance... so shallow ah.. watever..

Oh yah.. looking at the clock now..it's way past midnight.. and just a couple of minutes past my actual birthdate n time. Happy Birthday to Myself...
Hmm.. my dear readers here may be wondering tat i must be so narcisstic or lonely a person to greet my self..but honestly, aint you supposed to be the best friend ever to yourself.. appreciating and loving your true self too... At least to be at complete ease n peace with oneself..
Okie dokie...So this shall be my birthday wish for the year of 2006...
Contentment with myself.. Embracing myself... Loving myself...
Oh yah.. a more wish.. greedy me.. a harmonious family who embrace one another n stop throwing shit and pointing fingers some day...
I hope..I pray.. with faith.. I believe this day will come..

Though...somewhere out there at a corner of my neurons..dendrite..
grey matters..subconscious mind perhaps..
i know that there lies another personal wish of being able to go through my Journey of Space n Time hand in hand with a person who know me deep n well..2 hearts beating as one.. connected..overlapping but never exactly one..
I thought I have found the answer but with the turn of fate.. heaven's playing trick on me?
Maybe..Yes.. Maybe..No... it's all my perception...
When can this puzzle be solved... or Would it ever be solved?
Could it be that there no answer in the end?
This being one of the many grey area of the life?
Emptiness of life...?
Only time will tell.. perhaps more of coming to terms to reality.. i guess..
Everything in its own time..
Going along with the ebb of tide in this river of life...
The universal flow of life

My Favourite SG Idol Song 2006

2006-10-25T00:37:00.000+08:00

Artist Hady Mirza
Song Title
You Give Me Wings

Sometimes it’s hard just to be yourself
I know you know
So close to tears wanting to give up
I felt all alone

But now you’re here by my side
And I just want you to know
You give me wings when I’m falling
You lift me up when I’m down
Taking me high touching the sky
Yeah you make me fly

Now I am stronger than I was before
Because of you
I feel so alive and I’m wanting more
I can’t believe it’s true

But now you’re here by my side
Don’t ever let me go

You give me wings when I’m falling
You lift me up when I’m down
Taking me high touching the sky
And you make me fly

Ooo baby, woah wooah
Come fly away with me

You give me wings when I’m falling
That’s why I’m saying to you
Whoa

You give me wings when I’m falling
When I'm falling
You lift me up when I’m down
When I'm down
Taking me high
Touching the sky
And you make me fly
You make me fly
(2 x)
You give me wings

Individuality of Life...

2006-09-17T10:55:00.000+08:00

Respecting others' choice of their path in life.. how true.. I suppose this seems to be the long-awaiting answer tat I have been seeking for over the past few mths.. Be it my family or personal woes... I have tried my best... All that could be done have been carried out... Now is the time for patience and acceptance... Each one of us is different with varying opinions. Soon, Family Counselling may come to a closure as everyone @ home gets busy with work or studies.. Someday, she will eventually learn and grow to appreciate and cherish more... how fortune she already is...

I guess he is right after all... As a frenz, he will always allow his loved buddies to make the mistakes and help along the path of learning from the past experience n healing.. rather than depriving them their right of choice in life...

Do read on for the inspiring email from Daily OM...

Adapted from Daily OM - Nurturing Mind, Body & Spirit
September 13, 2006
Observing Evolution
Allowing Others To Walk Their Paths

Watching a loved one or a peer traverse a path littered with stumbling blocks can be immensely painful. We instinctively want to guide them toward a safer track and share with them the wisdom we have acquired through experience. Yet all human beings have the right to carve their own paths without being unduly influenced by outside interference.

To deny them that right is to deny them enlightenment, as true insight cannot be conveyed in lectures. Rather, each individual must earn independence and illumination by making decisions and reflecting upon the consequences of each choice. In allowing others to walk their paths freely, you honor their right to express their humanity in whatever way they see fit. Though you may not agree with or identify with their choices, understand that each person must learn in their own way and at their own pace.

The events and circumstances that shape our lives are unique because each of us is unique. What touches one person deeply may do nothing more than irritate or confound another. Therefore, each of us is drawn to different paths-the paths that will have the most profound effects on our personal evolution. If you feel compelled to intervene when watching another human being make their way slowly and painfully down a difficult path, try to empathize with their need to grow autonomous and make their own way in the world.

Should this person ask for your aid, give it freely. You can even tell them about your path or offer advice in a conscious loving way. Otherwise, give them the space they need to make their own mistakes, to enjoy the fruits of their labors, to revel in their triumphs, and to discover their own truths.

The temptation to direct the paths of others is a creature of many origins. Overactive egos can convince us that ours is the one true path or awaken a craving for control within us. But each person is entitled to seek out their path leading from the darkness into the light. When we celebrate those paths and encourage the people navigating them, we not only enjoy the privilege of watching others grow-we also reinforce our dedication to diversity, independence, and individuality.

Walking Away to find a Better Tomorrow

2006-09-03T10:17:00.000+08:00

Walking Away
Artist: Craig David

I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better dayI
'm walking away (I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life

I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better day
I'm walking away
Sometimes some people get me wrong
When it's something I've said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun
That's why you turn and run
But now I truly realiseSome people don't wanna compromise

Well, I saw them with my own eyes
Spreading those lies,
and Well, I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say, lady
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better day
I'm walking away (I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life
I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well, I'm so tired, baby
Things you say, you're driving me away
Whispers in the powder room, baby
Don't listen to the games they play
Girl, I thought you'd realiseI'm not like them other guys
Coz I saw them with my own eyes
You should've been more wise,
andWell, I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say, lady

I'm walking away (now I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life (from the troubles in my life)
I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better day
I'm walking away (I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life (troubles in my life)
I'm walking away (yeah) (I'm walking away)Oh, to find a better day

I'm walking away (I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life (I've tried to solve you, baby)
I'm walking away (oh, yeah) (oh, yeah)
Oh, to find a better day(Oh, I'm gon, I'm gonna find a better day)
I'm walking away (oh, yeah)From the troubles in my life
(From the troubles in my life, baby)
I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better day
I'm walking away

Insights of ChelleLyn_the Scorpio Gal

[MV/HQ] Wang Lee Hom 王力宏 - 柴米油鹽醬醋茶 Chai Mi You Yan Jiang Cu Cha

Lenka - The Show

Soon.. in a couple of mths.. as I enter the supposedly prime phase of my life.

梁靜茹 如果沒有(自製KTV)

梁靜茹-愛情之所以為愛情

Charice - "Pyramid" featuring Iyaz - Studio Version

I believe I can fly - Ti lascio una canzone - Charice Pempengco e Viola...

Earth Day: Nice Poems on Trees..

[MV] 林俊傑 JJ Lin - 加油 Jia You [english sub]

Baby Boy-Big Brovaz Various Clips

Down With Love 言承旭 - 就想賴著妳 Opening Theme Song

方大同 - singalongsong [ MV ]

Last day of CNY of 2010: Yuan Xiao Jie

Boys Like Girls - Two is Better than One (feat. Taylor Swift) MUSIC VIDEO

周杰伦 Jay Chou - 断了的玄

The Beatles - Here Comes the Sun (with lyrics)

You Guo Qu De Nu Ren - Miriam Yeung MV

John Mayer: Say (music video from "The Bucket List")

My Love Will Get You Home-Christine Glass

" I am your friend now, rock..." ...Hmm.. It sounds so familiar..

20.09.2009.. My Cedarian Gathering...

Disney Princess: The Beauty of the Season (Official)

Where Dreams Begin - Disney Princess

五月天 忘詞MV 清晰版

Ayaka - Welcome home (Okaeri) Sub'd

Zettai Kareshi OST FULL + Lyrics

Elva - Because Of You.. This love song rocks!

玻璃鞋 : Found at last.. One of my fav Sammi Cheng Song :)

Butterfly Fly Away-Hannah Montana The Movie lyrics

Finally I did it.. PUt on my dental braces for practical reasons

LOVE STORY (Taylor Swift) meets VIVA LA VIDA (Coldplay) - Piano Cello - by Jon Schmidt

Taylor Swift - Love Story - Official Music Video w/lyrics

m2m pretty boy official music video

Colour of Happiness? Is that any at the first place?

M2M- dont say you love me ^^[Pokemon Movie]

If You Can Dream - Disney Princess

My Lovely First Week of June

The Non-Disney Princesses - If You Can Dream

Miley Cyrus The Climb Official Music Video HQ Video With Lyrics!

Miley Cyrus - The Climb NEW OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO HD w/ lyrics!

5th June.. a fun-filled day of bonding n self-relevation

When The Children Cry

Dive into the World of Dreams n Love

What a Labour Day!!!

Find Yourself by Brad Paisley

TVB-The Seventh Day Theme Video (Full)

Yet another eventful day.. Wow wee..

a lover's concerto

A different V-day celebration..

A Brand New Year.. A Brand New Class.. A new beginning to embrace

Did You Know 2.0

Now Hear Connie Talbot singing Over The Rainbow!!!

Take Some Time -By Leon Hansen-

Mulan - i'll make a man out of you

Reflection-Christina Aguilera (Mulan)

有過去的女人-le femme desperado mv

What I want out of my life!!!

Right in the middle of Practicum

Practicum 2..Tis time with more readiness & zest!!

Sunshine back into my life.. A swinging Bachelorette :)

Liang Shan Bo Yu Zhu Li Ye Engpin Subbed

Yu Jian

A Tribute to my deares Hammie..

Colbie Caillat - Realize

Colbie Caillat - Realize

Teardrops On My Guitar (Hermione/Harry/Cho Triangle)

Naruto-teardrop on my guitar

孫燕姿 - 我也很想他

♥Colbie Caillat - Bubbly (lyrics)♥

20. The Sound of Music - Edelweiss

Joyeux anniversaire à moi

Always look on the bright side of life - Monty Python

I Love You Always Forever -- Tarzan

Life is Like a Boat by Rie Fu

Somewhere Over the Rainbow

Reflection-Christina Aguilera (Mulan)

Bleach Meets Disney 2

Bleach Meets Disney

Awakened at Last with New Perspective of Life

梁靜茹如果沒有(自製KTV)

五月天忘詞MV 清晰版