My REal U Readings..HOw true.. i leave it 2 u 2 judge..

SUN IN SCORPIO

Control is the main ingredient in life for you. You are strong-willed, thorough, passionate and powerful. You are courageous and completely willing to go it alone when necessary. You tend to have a rather serious outlook on life, always probing, looking for the depths. Your life becomes more meaningful when you learn to be truly forgiving, when you control your sexual nature without repressing it. Strive to overcome envy, jealousy and possessiveness. Your intense, all or nothing attitude is very useful under some circumstances but all of life is not a battlefield. You turn that force to a high channel at some time in life and the search for meaning becomes a spiritual quest.

MERCURY IN SCORPIO

Your mind is penetrating and critical. Avoid being too secretive and you will learn more. Your manner of expression is diplomatic but doesn't truly reflect the peevish probing that is always going on. You are a shrewd negotiator who expresses even controversial ideas in a rather positive manner. Your ideas are predetermined but you are smart enough to know that people don't usually respond favorably to you if they suspect this. You are in your own depths and keep your own counsel. Your life is smoother when you learn to relax, enjoy life, and adjust to changes going on around you.

Food 4 thought..
ERm..to me..how true such astrology test..largely depends on how u see & intepret the results..
can be quite accurate to a large extent.. tat comment on Ctrl ..being the main ingredient in life 4 u.. but then..frankly speakin..sometimes..duties & responsibities r just simply being shoved onto me & there's just no reaction time 4 me 2 even reject it..
In short..it's like whether u like it or not..u just go 2 shoulder the burden or task & get things going or at least start 2 solve the prob...or challengin situation..
Another pt's tat..i'm always been a student leader..since when..oh..let me recollect..since my pri sch days.. earnestly.. i'm not boostin abt how gd i am.. 2 b chosen by teachers & so on & so forth..
it's just tat wat my frenz always say 2 me..
Hey..it's just abt looks lor..u simply got tat prefect look..u noe..
when i asked further..so wat's a prefect look?
then..there they go..shruggin their shoulder..w a simple reply of just " i dunno..it's just a feelin lor.. just sth in u.. which we dun have.." Or some may even start..gigglin..& commented ..like..
Oh i noe..
tat super gd gal look haha..Am i? seriously..i guess so..erm..with tat plastic framed spec & short hair..plus super neat fringe. Oh my god..sounds like a nerdy little bookworm back then..

anyway..back 2 the topic of ctrl.. so there i had my 1st sense of control..bein a prefect..who i was put i/c of the lower pri..u noe..
tat typical..bringin them 2 class after assembly.flag raisin ceremony..etc.. all tat mundane duties..
Next ..as i went on to Cedar gals 4 those fabulous..memorable..character-buildin...enrichin 4 years of secondary educatn.. I ended up as a prefect again..hmm..honestly..
i was really surprised but glad..to b recommended by my form teacher..mrs kwek then.. why glad..cos i felt then..tat bein a cedarian prefect's an honor + prestige.. leadin the sch in cheerin..organising..events..investiture..etc.& of course..the pride of every cedarian of my times.
the national inter-sch..B & C division ..Track & field championship.. tat till..now.
even when..just talkin abt it..now.. there's a beam of pride & glory in my smile while i typed on..
Really Shiok!! all tat thunderous cheers..echo..at National stadium...those long..blue & yellow banners which we..prefects did over the wkends.. Guess it's just a sch glory or camaraderie..
As wat most of my seniors once say..ONce a Cedarian, Always A Cedarian!! DAys @ CGSS..undeniably..the prime times..highlight of my school days!!

OOps.. i actually got so carried away ..goin on & on abt cedar.. anyway..that's another form of control..in the sense of maintainin the high discipline of sch as well as leadin the gals in cheering etc.. As for my jc years..
there i go again..a student councillor.. but this time..tink..i'm really heng bah 2 b elected by my peers into tat prestigious..highest student body of junior college.. guess..i do have my share of loyal frenzs.who gave tat vote 2 me bah.. anyway..so isn't tis another control..but more of in the sense tat..i am i/c of blazer..photography.. & not 4gettin all tat mass dance session when we got 2 lead the whole college..or to b exact..teach the new freshies..9 super energetic dance ..oh mine..how i did then..now i really wonder..I'm amazed as well..haha..tinkin back now..

As 4 my TPoly days..though..i was really into takin a backseat & not be so involved in leadership..but the twist of fate..or events..maybe heaven's simply playin tricks on me..
i was only a small no-one..durin my 1st sem of yr 1. an insignificant original member @ TKD..pretty happy w it but then..all tis's ephemeral...as from my 2nd sem of yr 1 ..elected as class rep.. ..haiz..honestly..i really did try declinin but then..my tutor seriously told me 2 give it a try as my fellow classmates..have the trust in me..so i relented..& a compromise..becomin the vice-rep instead..after tat..all tat leadership commitment starts.. i 1st joined the newly set up journalist group for my sch..the applied science.. (ASc)..& there's no lookin back since then.. Ended up as the Editor i/c ..sub com of ASc studies club..2nd yr..then..eventually..cos of journalist team.. i run 4 electn yet again 4 the main management com of studies club during final yr....where i became e sports secretary..cum editor i/c since jteam become a wing ..or branch under ASc studies club.. Though all tis's time consumin..it nonetheless..did spice up my otherwise mundane poly life.. Undeniably..it also gave me much chance 4 self-development & exposure thru events like annual.prestigious poly forum..amongst all polys.. representin my sch @ national crystal competitn etc..
All in all..perhaps..all tis leadership role..enhanced my schooling life ..though.at times..i really must admit..i'm tired of bein in control..i seriously..need a break i guess..but thanks 2 frenzs. & caring lecturers..i made it ! completed my diploma in biomed..& carried out my leadership roles 2 the best of my abilities..

Lastly..not 4gettin..the dearest pple in my life..my family.. like it or not..
we can choose our path in life..our career..but never can anyone in life choose where he/she wanna be born into..wat kind of family.. with a wooden /metal/silver/best still..stainless steel spoon.. tat's the fair share of life.. neither can the greatest scientist or hero in history.
All in all..either u learn 2 love ..appreciate & cherish ur family or u end up bein so miserable..
always..hatin..dislikin ur family.. so i guess i chose the former.. after all.. ur family's undeniably ur closet kin on tis planet Earth.. so wat does all tis got 2 do w control..rite?

Erm..i rem tat my da jie once told me off durin an argument..so long ago.i 4get how long back..tat i'm such a control freak..wanna 2 control so much of my life..tat i always end up hurting her unknowingly or even creatin so much trouble 4 her..esp when..my mom will ask her y she didn't teach me well..y..ur sis..michelle..so rebellious...always.like 2 argue w me..can't u teach her 2 b more like u..so obedient.. Tinkin back now..
i guess..control freak issit the rite choice of words..
i believe back then.i oredi have a mind of my own. in ctrl of my sch life....unlike her..when she's so preoccupied in pleasin mom..while i dun even carez a damn..who carez..esp when.i often kena caned!! Haha..guess..in exchange 4 my control of life. & bright ideas .durin my adolescence..so physical pain bah..( as 4 my sis..anyway..she changed much later as well..so ultimately..one still needs tat control of own life..)

While my sis changed. rom in feb..so kinda of officially married liao...so..haha..i'm like somewat..takin over her role..
not pleasin mom lah..but i tink..i have matured & grown up..so i more or less can understand her reasons..4 being strict. Ultimately..she cared alot 4 us..just tat she may have been 2 overprotective.. & dogmatic..
though..i must admit.i still can't stand her naggin @ times..or most of her times..haha..Learnt the art of switchin off..w/o lookin like i did.. So now's my frenz..teasin me tat i'm the mummy's gal..
So now the control part i play @ home..is to help my family ride thru this difficult times..esp when..i play tat impt role of a mediator b/w my rebellious youngest sis..& my parents..esp my conservative mom.. so tis's another kind of ball game..w all tat control issues..when.i need 2 plead on my xiaomei's behalf & when i need 2 let my xiaomei c my parent's reasons 4 certain harsh decision..

So in short.. i guess..Ctrl's indeed the main ingredient in my life ..whether i like it or not.. Really..if given a choice..i will choose 2 b less in control ...but then..sometimes in life..there's simply no options given..Rather than self-pity..i chose to face tis challenge up front..yes...it can be exhaustin.both mentally & physically..
but then..i tink..w little breaks & empowerin.from close frenzs..self-affirmatn...all tis will soon b over..