haiz..tell me why..always such things happen 2 me..esp when after months of preparatn and efforts put into it..Pls..can someone almighty up there answer me?
Pretty upset and of course super disappointed at the cruel twist of fate..it seems as if heaven been playing trick on me...lookin 4ward to go for race..River Regatta 2005..26 nov..my debut DB rowing race..after all the training n hard work put in..but sob..sob..sad 2 say.. tis dream had just vanished into thin air..n can never b materialised on sat.... ...

All bcos of my aggravated back injury which Dr strongly advises tat i need 2 rest well for a complete recovery for min of 1 week & certainly i got 2 give Regatta a miss tis time.. though i noe deep down in me, i dun want it..I want 2 go row and b part of the ntu gal rowers..but haiz, my body refuted tis desire and no matter how high threshold of tolerance i may ve towards pain..Endurin a back pain..while doing competitive rowing is no joke, man..cos i had a close experience to tat during last sun's intensive powerpack training..

Perhaps i should have rested on sun and not go 4 training as i did ve slight pain oredi ard the same area of my old injury( RHS of body, above my hip, near pelvis area..injury during tkd sparring years ago as well as i have had a terrible fall backwards last yr tat kinda of complicate it further..Arggh, why am i so accident prone ah? Damn it..clumsy me..). If only i ve decided to go c Dr again on sun morning b4 training..Maybe, i may not have worsened the injury much and there's also more time 2 rest..But these are just empty hopes..Time can never b turned back n the fact tat i must not row tis time round 2 avoid sustainin super serious injury tat may affect my posture and not allow me 2 play ball games n sports in future as old age beckons into my life..

Being a Biology student..as well as a biomedical diploma holder..
After hearing much abt my injury condition from Dr, it seems no other choice left for me but to miss the race..esp when the stake involved is too high..my back..my body ..in fact..my health..Without tat, i can never b able to enjoy another passion of my life, sports and a dream of runnin a full marathon in 2-3 years time can never become a reality..Mind over Body, tis cliche movitating phrase only work to a certain extent after all. Our body issnt a 100% power-driven machine with 0% chance of breakdown..it seems like my body is breaking apart in a way liao..perhaps, dear J is rite after all..I've been too tough on myself..too driven for this whole sem ..way too long and my body seriously need a rest ..

Hmm, n perhaps..tis could just be god's will..or sign tat i ought to slow down and have a well-deserved break after all tat hectic drilling and toughenin up of myself both physically and mentally.. Tis's a much needed break for goin the much longer and tougher journey ahead..

To sum up, i shall resign to my fate & rest well, have a speedy recovery n come back strong again..in time 4 Penang race, i hope i can do it.. for..
My Biggest opponent is not by ze side
I hear it loud and know it clear
My Biggest opponent is in here within..every day, every single moment
Me, Myself and I..

To conquer myself and my doubts..tat's overcoming my biggest opponent in life..
Way to go, ger..Ganbatte ne