Happy Birthday, dear Chelle...

I have completed exactly a quarter of century plus a yr of my journey of Space n Time on this planet Earth.. Congrats...gal.. U have survived thus far...
What's more to come in this long neverending journey till u return back to soil.. ashes to ashes, dust to dust.. No one knows ..perhaps only our almighty God may have a slightest idea of what's my destiny...my fate ahead... to be like
Anyway.. Got to live in the present.. not in the past..regretting my past mistakes nor chasing after the future .. so preoccupied that I lose myself in the real time of the present moment..

So what r my birthday wishes this time?
Nothing special..i suppose..other than the usual unlimited wants...
the neverending list...
a nice bouquet of forget-me-not w pretty roses...
the ever-popular stylish Crumpler bag..sporty too..
a holiday trip to Hongkong to go chill out..
shop n eat.. n see dear KS...
a luxury cruise to the Phuket...
a backpacking trip round Europe..like Italy, Spain, etc
Now... a more practical n feastible request to dear friends out there reading...a big hint okie..
( a wide Smile... :)
More of a need than want...
a durable, pleasant looking laptop case/pouch for my dear Toshiba Tecra M5..
High capability, though sad to say,
it may look kinda of old model design, not as sleek nor stylish as cyn or shy's Fujitsu. I even had a frenz who commented that she had mistaken it as a 2nd-hand purchase initially.. Sad to hear such comment then, but coming to think about it,nah.. i care less .. as long as my dear TTM5 serves me well.. why care much abt appearance... so shallow ah.. watever..

Oh yah.. looking at the clock now..it's way past midnight.. and just a couple of minutes past my actual birthdate n time. Happy Birthday to Myself...
Hmm.. my dear readers here may be wondering tat i must be so narcisstic or lonely a person to greet my self..but honestly, aint you supposed to be the best friend ever to yourself.. appreciating and loving your true self too... At least to be at complete ease n peace with oneself..
Okie dokie...So this shall be my birthday wish for the year of 2006...
Contentment with myself.. Embracing myself... Loving myself...
Oh yah.. a more wish.. greedy me.. a harmonious family who embrace one another n stop throwing shit and pointing fingers some day...
I hope..I pray.. with faith.. I believe this day will come..

Though...somewhere out there at a corner of my neurons..dendrite..
grey matters..subconscious mind perhaps..
i know that there lies another personal wish of being able to go through my Journey of Space n Time hand in hand with a person who know me deep n well..2 hearts beating as one.. connected..overlapping but never exactly one..
I thought I have found the answer but with the turn of fate.. heaven's playing trick on me?
Maybe..Yes.. Maybe..No... it's all my perception...
When can this puzzle be solved... or Would it ever be solved?
Could it be that there no answer in the end?
This being one of the many grey area of the life?
Emptiness of life...?
Only time will tell.. perhaps more of coming to terms to reality.. i guess..
Everything in its own time..
Going along with the ebb of tide in this river of life...
The universal flow of life