Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Been ages since i last blogged on Feb..
Now,it's coming to the End of April..
a quarter of year 2006 will have been gone soon as we usher in May..
It has been 2 long testing month both emotional turmoil and test of my resilence and patience.. Juggling with sch, family and personal life had never been so tough till now.. Am I overestimating myself..asking for unnecessary stress in life? Most likely, i am..Haiz..another bad old habit yet to be kicked..

I am melancholy.. Though here i am bloggin right after exams..end of all that arrgh..dreadful mugging and info-cramming while trying my best to focus n not b distracted with a overloaded mind..haiz..not with biology info..plant hormones..cytokinin, auxin, blah..blah..all that plant biology knowledge i ought to have amassed in my hardware up there over the days of mugging..yet with all those mind-blogging issues abt the affairs of the heart ( with an inevitable breakup to face) and family woes..Clouding up my head.. How am i to perform up to standard for tis exam.. this i seriously wonder and fortifying myself for the worst results is what i can prepare @ this pt of time.. What's been done cannot be undone..

I am exhausted too..Who is not when overloaded and bombarded with crisis after crisis.. to test me? Why me? i noe that life is never going to be easy but apparently, when it rain in my life, it's a stormy rain, never a passing drizzle..Or it is due to common understanding of cause n effect.. I reap what i sow.. Now's the time for my long overdue punishment.. I had cheating n buying time in my life way too long in my life .. What comes around goes around.. I am a sinner..
It's human to err? Nah, just a convenient excuse for myself to self-deny and escape from the harsh reality of life..

Now the time has come.. it's Now or Never..