Gosh..the random fury of Mother Nature...the rage of Indian Ocean!!
those deadly tsunamis on tat fateful Boxing DAy..
without any early warning..just happened so suddenly!.. so fast..too fast 4 many 2 react in time...2 be saved in the nick of time..

perhaps..the matter of life or death.in such point of time..ulitmately..lies in the hands of our Mighty God..& Lady Luck as well.beyond our control..beyond the reach of sciences even.. the death toll just keep increasin..oh my god..now.it has rocketed to 114,000...
i sincerely hope & pray tat it will stop multiplying..

but that...cos on top of the many bodies found, there are many missing locals & holiday goers..@ the once beautiful Phuket.. Phi phi island.. Sri Lanka..Tamil Nadu..Penang..etc.. were literally swept off their feet tat fine morning ..off guard..by the raging waves..as high as 10 m or more! Can u imagine how immense the force of the tsunamis were when there was report of the island of sumatra..having shifted fr its inital geographical spot on the ocean by 30m?? Gosh..the force must b tat enormous to be able 2 shift such a big island like sumatra by such a dist..30 m..not 30 cm..mind u..

The whole world's shaken by this saddening news..esp during a supposedly joyous festive time of the year..x'mas & usherin of a brand new yerar 2005! This is indeed the natural calamity of 2004.. dampenin all the happy moods..esp when.i 'm very affected by those heart aching..photos of those victims & loved ones of the dead... I'm sure tat many fellow singaporeans just like me..felt much sorrow & grief for these unfortunate victims..our fellow neighbours in Asia..Indeed the South Asia's devastated!! All these heavenly-like beach resorts..with well-planned amenties by the inviting , clear. emerald..sea had been destroyed overnight!! within that few minutes..of massacre by the sea..my heart sank ..thinkin about the after tsunamis photos flashed all over the newspapers cover pages..

Err..perhaps..the tragic aftermath of sunday's deadly tsunamis (Jap 4 " harbour waves") serves as a wake-up call 2 everyone..worldwide..that the biggest threat to mankind..our human security is not just only ourselves, not even the much-feared terrorists.. but simply..our Environment we are living in.. tat we have exploited much over the years..greenhouse effect, global warming, deforestation, the depletion of ozone layer..the list goes on...

Ultimately, the harsh reality remains tat we r after all @ the mercy of Mother Nature..recallin back those deadly typhoons, earthquakes..eg.kobe..etc, volcanoes, hurricanes.. tat r blind in their actions..completely merciless.. Coming 2 ponder abt, these weather changes, shifting of tetonic plates are just part & parcel of the earth movement & creation of new lands ..

So who's the one..ultimately @ fault..no one..i guess..tis's just a way of life since the evolution of Man...or perhaps it's just God's destiny 4 us..humankind..regardless of religion, race, nationality... Human r indeed exploiting their environment over years...wat goes around comes around..oops..am i rite with the proverb.. watever.. oh no....me talkin cock liao..

I sincerely pray tat. the death toll soon stop goin on & on...& tat all the victims..can pull through esp when there's the fear of outbreak..cholera..etc..

tat's about it.haiz..the tragedy of life...time 2 sleep ..& reflect upon 2004 again..b4 the new year 2005 approaches...in 23 hours' time...

Quotes of the day

Of All the Treasured Gifts
In tis World,
The One tat's Most Precious Is
The GiFt of A Brand NeW Day!!


A meaningful msg..i came across when watchin the final episode of "Six Weeks"..
a short drama serial @ Channel i..just a few hours ago..
A heartwarming story indeed! Almost moved me 2 tears! or had it? Maybe..

As mentioned by the lead actor..David Wong( acted by Adrian Pang) in his script..

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There isn't such a thing that the good guy always win..
Life's about fighting your every day's battles,
learning from them and moving on..
Sometimes u win , sometimes u lose too..
So all in all, live every day to the best way u noe!

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Err..i agree largely 2 it.. the reality of life..
Welcome to the real world!!

As 2004 comes 2 a close,
when my walls r down,vigilance low..
Boggled by never-ending saga,
Exhaustion engulfed me

Thump! A fall on tat stormy nite..
Just a Minor concussion, thank god!
But the aftershock- swirling tempest of pain..
tat came & vanished like the phantom in me.

Gosh..my will's failing me!
Loss of sign & path ahead
Mr Amnesia..Is it U? I wonder..
Erasing tis whirlpool of emotions

Momentarily, I'm lost..
Heart over Mind
Fables over Facts

Till I look deep beneath,
Listen to the voice within,
Empowered by Faith, Hope &
Frenzships I'm thankful 4

Adieu 2 Mr Confusion!
No more guessing games..
No more mind-boggling..
Sir Focus & Order, Welcome back!

Yeah! Here i am.. Up again!
Mind over Heart
Truths over Ideals

Now Revitalized & Reloaded
With zest & lessons learnt.. Born free..
A New Me 2 face challenges ahead!
Ever-ready 2 embrace 2005!



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Way 2 go!!
Happy New Year..my frenzs!! :P


Err..so here's my debut poem entry..summarising up my sem holidays so far ..

hehe..kinda of impromptus.. Just unleashed some creative juice ..i hope..
so do pardon me for my rather mediocre writings.. not exactly that poetic..i tink
Feel free 2 drop me a comment..:)
there's always room 4 improvement!!

Me & my complexity..

It's a miracle!
My home pc's revived or working again!
How i dun noe y either cos it works again without any reason.. just like the way it malfunctioned 2 days ago when the monitor blacked out out of a sudden..Wat my little sis did was just tryin out her chance by switchin on the pc 2 c if it works.. & there she came yellin in joy 2 me " Jie..jie..the com's working! I can blog at last!"
..Err.. or perhaps my x'mas wish came true..Yeah!!

anyway..above's just all my craps abt that obsolete pc. still runnin on Window Me .. edition]

I spent my X'mas eve tis yr @ home with my 2 dear sisters..little gracie & da jie..& her hubby.lawrence...Enjoyed sumptuous x'mas seafood dinner with their company! After tat delectable treat by da jie..& lawr..it was movie treat!! " Pirates of the Carribean".. thanks 2 my dear abigail( cos i borrowed her vcd).

Been a rather refreshing, joyous & carefree one for me..though i spent it @ home, unlike those years when i spent it w cousins or frenzs @ orchard....Y refreshin & joyous?? Cos i got 2 enjoy yummy seafoods..chilli crab..calamari..the list goes on..a total atypical x'mas dinner issit..w/o the turkey..log cake ..
Nonetheless..the spirits of x'mas's still in the air..amidst the aroma as the cd.." Disney X'mas sing-along" played on while we ate & chatted.. Not 4gettin the best part..was tat our parents' out of town!!! haha...this certainly explained why..tis x'mas been a carefree one!! haha..since our "governors" are away..

But then..comin 2 tink abt it,..i've been entrusted with a daunting..task of takin gd care of the little princess of my family..little gracie..arggh..tat goes my long x'mas wkend.. after an enjoyable eve...REsponsibility as an older sis...babysittin the youngest sibling.. Gotten an insight into the life of mom..i guess...as a home management director..hehe..with all that mundane routines...etc...Not tat bad leh..lookin @ tis from a diff perspective.. household managment's quite a skill 2 learn & hone too..

So here i am..gettin a practicum session as my dear parents r away @ kelantan with their fellow qigong counterparts.. I hope they r having fun..esp mom..who's always worrying over us..her little peter-pans..though..the reality been tat..little gracie's goin 2 sec 2..while my da jie, phy..& i are now oredi in our 20s..u noe.. Err..i guess..from mom's pt of view..we r always little kids to her!

Hey..so how's my practicum so far...err..not tat bad..at least..i managed 2 finish up all the chores by noon..u noe..those typical ..sweeping..mopping..watching plants..prayer rituals..(burnin joss sticks etc )...cookin & makin sure tat little gracie has her fill..bathe & does her homework..washin dishes..clothes..hangin the laundry out..tidyin the hse..oh mine!! the list seems 2 go on & on..

Now i finally got 2 experience wat mom always tells me abt..the mundane lifestyle of a homemaker! Thank god!! i've got the sounds of music ..courtesy of simple plan, maroon 5, usher, may day, stefanie..jay chou..the list goes on.. 4 company while doin the tasks..if not..gosh..how can i survive through these daily chores!

Homemaker's definitely not my cup of tea!!
Just a few days of being a house-daughter is oredi borin me 2 death!!
Kudos 2 mom for being such a gd homemaker 4 so many yrs!! Erm..guess..i shall learn 2 b more appreciative of her in future..at least by lettin her release her frustation through nagging..i hope i can..

Yeah! tmr's 27 dec..the last day of my homemaking session!! Erm..lookin 4ward to the homecoming of mom & dad..wondering wat they r bringing back..

Time ..the Universal Equality of Life..Regardless of Race, $..

Hmm..so wat's time..other than the usual understanding of it being..measured by stopwatch, clocks, etc...in seconds, minutes, hours, days...weeks..to mths..years..so on & so forth..

So how abt lookin @ time fr another aspect in..a more abstract & self-reflective way..

Read on 2 find out more ...
the intriguing & aesthetic description

by Arnold Bennett

,,,,,,TIME''''''''''

Time's the inexplicable raw material of everything
With it, all's possible; without it, nothing.
The supply of time's truly a daily miracle, an affair genuinely astonishing when one examines it.

U wake up in the morning & lo!
Your purse's magically filled with 24hrs of the unmanufacturec tissue of the universe of your life! IT's yours!!
It's the most precious of possessions...
No one can take it from. It's unstealable.
And no one receives either more or less than u receive.

In the realm of time,
there's no aristocracy of wealth & aristocracy of intellect.
Genius is never rewarded by even an extra hr a day.
And there's no punishment.
Waste your infinitely precious commodity as much as you will
& the supply'll never be withheld from u..

Moreover, U cannot draw on the future.
Impossible to get into debt!
You can only waste the passing moment.
U cannot waste tmr; it's kept 4 U.
U cannot waste the next hr; it's kept 4 U.

I have said the affair was a miracle. Issit not?
You're to live on this 24 hrs of daily time.
Out of it, U've 2 spin health, pleasure, $, content, respect & the evolution of your immortal soul.

Its right use, its most effective use is a matter of the highest urgency
& of the most thrilling actuality. All depends on tat.
Your happiness - the elusive prize tat U are all clutching for, my frenzs - depends on tat...

If one cannot arrange tat an income of 24 hrs a day shall exactly cover all proper items of expenditure, one does muddle one's whole life indefinitely.

We shall never have any more time.
We have, and
we have always had all the time there is.

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All in all..as the saying goes...Time & Tides Wait 4 No Man.....
Life's a Journey 2 savour & for u & me..
2 cherish & learn ..every single day of our time on this beautiful planet, EaRtH..

little rascals on board bus..be careful..oops..bus's movin liao..hurry up! get bk 2 ur seat!!

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here's pretty..sweetie amanda..demo..the use of the equipment..thks ..my little chio bu...future model!! tall ..fair..slim & so sweet..w her dimpled smile & ponytails!!

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little handsome choon hong ..heyhey..demo of a therapeutic device..also can b a toy 4 the intellectually disabled 2 exercise & learn..@ blue Cross Thong Kheng Home

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oops.earlier one's the wrong pix..paiseh..so here's the rite one!!

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after the end of muscial.. a small photo-takin session..hehe.. so introducin my beloved cousin...Sze Li ( hmm.pretty rite..so 2 the guys.. dun say tat i didn't tell u tat she's available leh..).& her nus eng buddies..plus 2 little newfound frenzs...heyhey...ain't they so adorable..haha..at 1st..i thought tat they r nieces of one of her buddy..

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heyhey..the Howling Tales Musical @ Kreta Ayer People's Theatre.. Roaring Success! Kudos 2 the students actistes! REally enjoyed it..though at 1st..super tired after sharity camp..so worryin tat i may ended up dozin off..on the cozy chair...with the dim lighting.. thk 2 the entertainin performance...it' didnt happen..if not..oops..super rude 2 the performer..u noe..sleepin while they r actin..wat kind of msg u r conveyin 2 them..

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Highlight of the dae!! Visit 2 RDA...Riding 4 the Disabled Associatn of Spore..so here we r...attendin a briefin on horse groomin session by instructor..lynn & mette..tat 2 tall & friendly angmohs! Learnt much abt horse riding..

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hey..throwin the ball 2 me!! interactive games b/w both the young & old!! Oh wow..tat ah gong..in pix..really gd in this simple game leh..like havin his 2nd childhood.!

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haha...me in action!! Singin along next to little joshua wilson...lead singer of my small carol troupe..Issit he cute!! Wow..he can really sing.. In total.. we just sang 3 songs..d/t limited time.. We wish u a merry x'mas... Jingle Bells.. lastly..finale song...Barney song...i luv u..u luv me..we r happy family..( paiseh..dunno the song title..) Kudos 2 my dearest..orange-sharity kids!! WELL Done!!

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Impromptus X'mas Carollin !! 4 all old folks @ Ling Kwang Home 4 Senior Citizens.. So proud of my team :) 4 volunteerin 2 take the lead!! So 20 pts bonus 4 our spontaneity! Yeah!! My little rascals r jumpin 4 joy.. esp since tis led us 2 make a comeback..from being the last on day 1 to 2nd in the running!

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Chillin Out@ Mac !! Lunch.. Me w my adorable Orange Team!!

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Sharity Fun camp day 2... @ BlueCrossThongKhengHome

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A Song Dedication 2 all my Frenzs..Cyn..Csiler..LYs..& many more..

A big thank you 2 all my dearest..frenzs..4 bein there 4 me
Esp when i need a listening ear..advice & even just support 4 me during this challenging year of 2004.. with the passing away of 3 loved ones..both my grandparents..Grandpa@ Sept.. Grandma @ April.. as well as the sudden demise of a friendly & helpful elder cousin bro..durin a tragic industrial accident @ Jurong Island..

Haiz.. Just can't imagine tat my meetin with him in March would b the last time i c him..Life is indeed tat unpredictable.. Simply teaches me 2 cherish all my loved ones & never take them for granted..as sometimes..that tomorrow may just never come! This was indeed a great blow 2 my paternal family..esp since both my grandma & cousin..passed away in the same week! Gosh..Unbelievable..so drama-like ..but indeed it had happened 2 my family..

All in all, Kudos 2 all my frenzs..for being there for me!
I truly appreciate it!!
So here's the song I would like 2 dedicate 2 all my frenzs..
actually..it's the recent cover song..sang by the 12 finalist of S'pore Idol..
Heard it over perfect 10..& like it very much..particularly the chorus.. so take note of it..my little msg 4 all of u..Take care always.. ;P

That's Wat Frenzs r For
Written by Bacharach

And I never thought I'd feel tis way
And as far as I'm concerned.
I'm glad I got the chance 2 say
Tat I do believe I love u

And If I should ever go away
Well then Close your eyes & try
To feel the way we do 2day
And then if u can remember

Chorus...
Keep Smiling, keep shining
Knowing u can always count on me, for sure
That's wat frenzs are for.
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side 4ever more
Tat's wat frenz r for

Well you came in loving me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I THANK YOU... ... Oh an... ...

My REal U Readings..HOw true.. i leave it 2 u 2 judge..

SUN IN SCORPIO

Control is the main ingredient in life for you. You are strong-willed, thorough, passionate and powerful. You are courageous and completely willing to go it alone when necessary. You tend to have a rather serious outlook on life, always probing, looking for the depths. Your life becomes more meaningful when you learn to be truly forgiving, when you control your sexual nature without repressing it. Strive to overcome envy, jealousy and possessiveness. Your intense, all or nothing attitude is very useful under some circumstances but all of life is not a battlefield. You turn that force to a high channel at some time in life and the search for meaning becomes a spiritual quest.

MERCURY IN SCORPIO

Your mind is penetrating and critical. Avoid being too secretive and you will learn more. Your manner of expression is diplomatic but doesn't truly reflect the peevish probing that is always going on. You are a shrewd negotiator who expresses even controversial ideas in a rather positive manner. Your ideas are predetermined but you are smart enough to know that people don't usually respond favorably to you if they suspect this. You are in your own depths and keep your own counsel. Your life is smoother when you learn to relax, enjoy life, and adjust to changes going on around you.

Food 4 thought..
ERm..to me..how true such astrology test..largely depends on how u see & intepret the results..
can be quite accurate to a large extent.. tat comment on Ctrl ..being the main ingredient in life 4 u.. but then..frankly speakin..sometimes..duties & responsibities r just simply being shoved onto me & there's just no reaction time 4 me 2 even reject it..
In short..it's like whether u like it or not..u just go 2 shoulder the burden or task & get things going or at least start 2 solve the prob...or challengin situation..
Another pt's tat..i'm always been a student leader..since when..oh..let me recollect..since my pri sch days.. earnestly.. i'm not boostin abt how gd i am.. 2 b chosen by teachers & so on & so forth..
it's just tat wat my frenz always say 2 me..
Hey..it's just abt looks lor..u simply got tat prefect look..u noe..
when i asked further..so wat's a prefect look?
then..there they go..shruggin their shoulder..w a simple reply of just " i dunno..it's just a feelin lor.. just sth in u.. which we dun have.." Or some may even start..gigglin..& commented ..like..
Oh i noe..
tat super gd gal look haha..Am i? seriously..i guess so..erm..with tat plastic framed spec & short hair..plus super neat fringe. Oh my god..sounds like a nerdy little bookworm back then..

anyway..back 2 the topic of ctrl.. so there i had my 1st sense of control..bein a prefect..who i was put i/c of the lower pri..u noe..
tat typical..bringin them 2 class after assembly.flag raisin ceremony..etc.. all tat mundane duties..
Next ..as i went on to Cedar gals 4 those fabulous..memorable..character-buildin...enrichin 4 years of secondary educatn.. I ended up as a prefect again..hmm..honestly..
i was really surprised but glad..to b recommended by my form teacher..mrs kwek then.. why glad..cos i felt then..tat bein a cedarian prefect's an honor + prestige.. leadin the sch in cheerin..organising..events..investiture..etc.& of course..the pride of every cedarian of my times.
the national inter-sch..B & C division ..Track & field championship.. tat till..now.
even when..just talkin abt it..now.. there's a beam of pride & glory in my smile while i typed on..
Really Shiok!! all tat thunderous cheers..echo..at National stadium...those long..blue & yellow banners which we..prefects did over the wkends.. Guess it's just a sch glory or camaraderie..
As wat most of my seniors once say..ONce a Cedarian, Always A Cedarian!! DAys @ CGSS..undeniably..the prime times..highlight of my school days!!

OOps.. i actually got so carried away ..goin on & on abt cedar.. anyway..that's another form of control..in the sense of maintainin the high discipline of sch as well as leadin the gals in cheering etc.. As for my jc years..
there i go again..a student councillor.. but this time..tink..i'm really heng bah 2 b elected by my peers into tat prestigious..highest student body of junior college.. guess..i do have my share of loyal frenzs.who gave tat vote 2 me bah.. anyway..so isn't tis another control..but more of in the sense tat..i am i/c of blazer..photography.. & not 4gettin all tat mass dance session when we got 2 lead the whole college..or to b exact..teach the new freshies..9 super energetic dance ..oh mine..how i did then..now i really wonder..I'm amazed as well..haha..tinkin back now..

As 4 my TPoly days..though..i was really into takin a backseat & not be so involved in leadership..but the twist of fate..or events..maybe heaven's simply playin tricks on me..
i was only a small no-one..durin my 1st sem of yr 1. an insignificant original member @ TKD..pretty happy w it but then..all tis's ephemeral...as from my 2nd sem of yr 1 ..elected as class rep.. ..haiz..honestly..i really did try declinin but then..my tutor seriously told me 2 give it a try as my fellow classmates..have the trust in me..so i relented..& a compromise..becomin the vice-rep instead..after tat..all tat leadership commitment starts.. i 1st joined the newly set up journalist group for my sch..the applied science.. (ASc)..& there's no lookin back since then.. Ended up as the Editor i/c ..sub com of ASc studies club..2nd yr..then..eventually..cos of journalist team.. i run 4 electn yet again 4 the main management com of studies club during final yr....where i became e sports secretary..cum editor i/c since jteam become a wing ..or branch under ASc studies club.. Though all tis's time consumin..it nonetheless..did spice up my otherwise mundane poly life.. Undeniably..it also gave me much chance 4 self-development & exposure thru events like annual.prestigious poly forum..amongst all polys.. representin my sch @ national crystal competitn etc..
All in all..perhaps..all tis leadership role..enhanced my schooling life ..though.at times..i really must admit..i'm tired of bein in control..i seriously..need a break i guess..but thanks 2 frenzs. & caring lecturers..i made it ! completed my diploma in biomed..& carried out my leadership roles 2 the best of my abilities..

Lastly..not 4gettin..the dearest pple in my life..my family.. like it or not..
we can choose our path in life..our career..but never can anyone in life choose where he/she wanna be born into..wat kind of family.. with a wooden /metal/silver/best still..stainless steel spoon.. tat's the fair share of life.. neither can the greatest scientist or hero in history.
All in all..either u learn 2 love ..appreciate & cherish ur family or u end up bein so miserable..
always..hatin..dislikin ur family.. so i guess i chose the former.. after all.. ur family's undeniably ur closet kin on tis planet Earth.. so wat does all tis got 2 do w control..rite?

Erm..i rem tat my da jie once told me off durin an argument..so long ago.i 4get how long back..tat i'm such a control freak..wanna 2 control so much of my life..tat i always end up hurting her unknowingly or even creatin so much trouble 4 her..esp when..my mom will ask her y she didn't teach me well..y..ur sis..michelle..so rebellious...always.like 2 argue w me..can't u teach her 2 b more like u..so obedient.. Tinkin back now..
i guess..control freak issit the rite choice of words..
i believe back then.i oredi have a mind of my own. in ctrl of my sch life....unlike her..when she's so preoccupied in pleasin mom..while i dun even carez a damn..who carez..esp when.i often kena caned!! Haha..guess..in exchange 4 my control of life. & bright ideas .durin my adolescence..so physical pain bah..( as 4 my sis..anyway..she changed much later as well..so ultimately..one still needs tat control of own life..)

While my sis changed. rom in feb..so kinda of officially married liao...so..haha..i'm like somewat..takin over her role..
not pleasin mom lah..but i tink..i have matured & grown up..so i more or less can understand her reasons..4 being strict. Ultimately..she cared alot 4 us..just tat she may have been 2 overprotective.. & dogmatic..
though..i must admit.i still can't stand her naggin @ times..or most of her times..haha..Learnt the art of switchin off..w/o lookin like i did.. So now's my frenz..teasin me tat i'm the mummy's gal..
So now the control part i play @ home..is to help my family ride thru this difficult times..esp when..i play tat impt role of a mediator b/w my rebellious youngest sis..& my parents..esp my conservative mom.. so tis's another kind of ball game..w all tat control issues..when.i need 2 plead on my xiaomei's behalf & when i need 2 let my xiaomei c my parent's reasons 4 certain harsh decision..

So in short.. i guess..Ctrl's indeed the main ingredient in my life ..whether i like it or not.. Really..if given a choice..i will choose 2 b less in control ...but then..sometimes in life..there's simply no options given..Rather than self-pity..i chose to face tis challenge up front..yes...it can be exhaustin.both mentally & physically..
but then..i tink..w little breaks & empowerin.from close frenzs..self-affirmatn...all tis will soon b over..

oops..technical prob w my super lousy home pc..

Haiz..so sad..i can't blog @ home due to that super primitive super problematic PC..tat one& only available..cos my other one's @ hall 15..ntu..
So sorrie..no updates 4 the past few days..2day as well till tmr..
Shall update all on wed..15th dec..when i'm goin bk 2 hostel..


tat's abt..it..
Hmm..
Time 4 Pasir Ris Park!! Yeah!!

Some afterthought .. & Mahjong lesson !!

An interesting email..fwd by frenzs..

4 SEASONS --THE MEASURE OF LIFE

There was a man who had four sons. He wanted his sons to learn not to judge things too quickly. So he sent them each on a quest, in turn, to go and look at a pear tree that was a great distance away. The first son went in the winter, the second in the spring, the third in summer, and the youngest son in the fall. When they had all gone and come back, he called them together to describe what they had seen. The first son said that the tree was ugly, bent, and twisted. The second son said no--it was covered with green buds and full of promise. The third son disagreed, he said it was laden with blossoms that smelled so sweet and looked so beautiful, it was the most graceful thing he had ever seen. The last son disagreed with all of them; he said it was rip e and drooping with fruit, full of life and fulfillment. The man then explained to his sons that they were all right, because they had each seen but ONLY one season in the tree's life.

He told them that you cannot judge a tree, or a person, by only one season, and that the essence of whom they are--and the pleasure, joy, and love that come from that life--can only be measured at the end, when all the seasons are up.

If you give up when it's winter, you will miss the promise of your spring, the beauty of your summer, fulfillment of your fall. Don't let the pain of one season destroy the joy of all the rest. Don't judge life by one difficult season. Persevere through the difficult patches and better times are sure to come some time or later.

Upon reading tis.. there's indeed some truth 2 this way of reasonin.. Winter is freezin cold when animals go hibernatin..etc..however..comin 2 tink abt it..the gd part of winter.is that X'mas's round the corner & not forgetting all tat fun..snow..building snowman..skiing..etc..So no matter how difficult the season may be..there will still be some sort of consolation..or plus pt..
I guess..after all.. there is Hope on Earth..ultimately..all this depends on ur attitude..whether u choose 2 b positive or negative..

Tat's abt it..
So how was yesterday 4 me?
Morning till 2pm..completin of x'mas cards 4 my fellow BScians..
3pm till evening..Mahjong session @ qq's popo's hse..tink somewhere along stirling rd..if i rem rite..

Erm..pretty enjoyable & educational..haha..if u consider mahjong 's sth educational.. but then.. it can be considered as a form of recreation & relaxation..gd 4 polishin ur statisitcs..esp in the areas of GP..geometric progression..even..probability leh..u noe..calculating the no of tiles & ur chances of winning..hehe..
as claimed or taught..by master qq..our foc mahjong tutor..not 4gettin expert hh too..

Surprisingly..ly & i..though both of us..really..beginners actually won a few games leh..( i mean..we r those hopeless ones lor.. 4 my case..ask my kaki.shy..cyn..& they can tell u y..cos they almost vomit bld teachin me in the past..) ..Must be the typical beginning's luck..i heard abt .. that's no wonder i can actually win a few games.. Thanks 2 lady luck as well.. cos i was indeed impressed by the super gd tiles..i picked by chance..REally not super tricks of swoppin tiles ...watever.. But then..there was an interestin..discussion on the postion of god of fortune..rite behind.. ly's seat.. by the ever-noisy qq..who else..esp when he had been losin so many games..must b a sore loser then..if not..cos..of his ego ..gotten hurt..i guess..lolz..when he.was e tutor. & should not b losin tat many games.. All in all..he's the joker of the game..2gether w hh..added much liveliness 2 the games..

Anyway..tink i've finally learnt the rope fr both experts..mr qq& hh..cos i felt tat i'm actually enjoyin the game leh. Not tat bad after all..
Unlike..those times..back @ shy's hse..few yrs back during CNY..i actually gotten bored of learnin ..@ the end.. i just simply gave up..& ended up servin drinks 4 my kaki..hehe..perhaps..change of perspective liao..if not..maybe..my concussion on head..may have also altered my interest lvl on mahjong..haha..erm..sounds more like it..

Hopefully..there's more trainin sessions 2 come..4 me 2 polish up my super mediocre skills..so hehe..a super obvious hint..2 master qq & hh..(if u readin my blog..hahaha..)..Tat's abt it..
B4 signin off..a big thanks 2 tutor qq & hh 4 their foc mahjong lesson..& not 4gettin popo 4..allowin us 2 play @ her cosy hse..

oops..i keep 4gettin 2 update on my lookin bk of 2004..must really do so 4 the next blog..
Cya..:)

Me n My Bright Ideas: 22 X'mas Cards 2 finish up!!

haiz..time now's oredi past midnite..dec 8 liao..still struggling 2 complete all that cards ..but then..i still enjoy the process though..it can b quite tedious when doin all alone now..Erm..thanks 2 my keen interest in art & crafts bah..esp in drawin, designin & the doin of small keepsakes like cards, bkmarks , just 2 name a few.. 4 frenzs.. Or perhaps..it's mainly due 2 the company of frenzs..Ly & qq..adrian..helpin out in the makin of cards for our dearest fellow BScians @ nie. So with all tat suanin..jokes, entertainment etc.. effective in addin fun & enjoyment 2 the otherwise mundane task of repetitive paper cuttin of x'mas tree..

In short..almost my entire day was spent on makin cards at my 2nd home..ntu hall 15.. with the company of fun-lovin pals..Also thanks 2 them..helpin much..so i guess..by abt 3am..i should b able 2 finish the final work..& these simple yet pleasant ( i hope so) cards with all tat efforts, best wishes & sincerity tagged onto it..will b ready 4 mailing!! So ..a big thanks 2 mr Postman in advance.. Decided 2 revert bk to the usual slow mail..though it takes more time than e-mail..it is still nonetheless..a gd way of keepin in touch with that extra personal touch..
Yeah! wat an accomplishment 4 the day!!

Anyway..time 2 go back & finish up the cards..shall update more abt my looking back of 2004 next time.. :P

Debut Blog on Lunar Birthday!

Hey..hey..At last..I'm joining the bloggers world after much influence from frenz..LY..apr..etc.. & not 4gettin my buddy bro..csiler..for his recommendatn 2 blog & leave aside all tat usual..Dear Diary.. Guess tat i've caught the addicitive bug oredi..haha..So here i am pennin my debut blog..Also..an auspicious day 2 start my blog..esp when it's my lunar b'day..So with the rite timing..fengshui..etc..haha..i'm confident tat i shall enjoy bloggin for the long run & not just a passing interest..

Lookin back now..In just 3 wks time, year 2004 is coming 2 a close as we usher in new brand year 2005!! Yeah!! i'm lookin 4ward 2 tis..esp when tis whole year..been a roller coaster ride 4 me..full of the many ups & downs.. Just like wat csiler says.. all tis events..can b filmed into a channel 8 drama serial..with all tat peaks & troughs in my family..Erm..shows like a great idea 4 $$.. shall kiv tis at the moment.. NOnetheles.. i must say tat i've matured & toughened up..as adversity builds character..

If not 4 mom's call, i didn't rem tat 2day's my lunar b'day.. oops..is it just a slip of my mind or due to amnesia..after my minor concussion caused by a fall..& hit on head last week? I sincerely hope tat it must b the former.. Coming 2 tink abt tis..i seriously..dun mind havin selective amnesia..u noe..just the erasin of the unhappy memorise in my life.. but then..just a wishful thinking on my part..

time now is 5.47pm..oops..got 2 get going home fr boon lay soon..cos mom's cookiin longevity noodles w extra helppings of eggs & mushrooms..yum..yum..gettin hungry..(definitely tastes better than tat mediocre century egg pork porridge i had at canteen 14 earlier..as lunch).. Got 2 go back & eat tis esp 4 good luck & prosperity esp after tat suay fallin backwards..hitting my head last week.. I shall just b a good mummy's gal ..go home 4 dinner & then return back 2 hall tmr mornin 4 x'mas cardmakin session.. It is unimaginable if i have had hit a nearby rock on the ground..thank god..I missed it..so just minor concussion w some side effects..sudden bouts of headaches & sprained neck lor.. Heng..heng.. no frature..blood clot or internal bleeding after all those tests & x'rays at A&E.. From tis accident.. just reminded me ..how unpredictable & fragile life can be..

So i shall end here w tis meaningful note I read from a book..
THE PHYSICS OF HUMAN NATURE

1) The Law of Relative Gravity
Lighten up. A Problem is Only as Heavy as U let it be

2) The Doppler Effect of Communication
There is always distortion between wat a speaker says & wat a listener wants it 2 mean.
(Esp so during conversation b/w wife & husband)

3) The Centrifugal Force of Arguments
The farther U move from the Core of the Problem,
the faster the situation spins out of control
( So dun digress & dig up the past during quarrel!)